hotboyjun
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nobody will ever ever read this and thats y im posting it but like damn im someone who's so attached. sooo attached. i come here every now and then and see all these people that i knew about and observed from the outside and its so crazy. some of these people are shitty and some of these people are not and some r just complex and it's like damn ! like wattpad used to make up a huge part of my social interaction bcs i was a kid with barely any friends. i have been so online since the age of eleven. i have known so many people through instagram and tumblr and wattpad and twitter. and in the last six years only a smattering of those relationships has survived. then there are people im still mutuals with and those i can still reach out to but I never do but id rather kms than unfollow them bcs i need to know how they're doing. and then there's the people who are gone forever. all bcs I don't know their usernames anymore? that's crazy. i still gaf abt them. i gaf sooo much. I want to hang out with everybody I've ever met. but i obviously can't. there is a part of me on wattpad stuck in time and frozen. and when someone comes to this account they will see what i used to be up to when i was thirteen. and then as they scroll up they will see everything erode. they'll see the futility of messages sent by friends on my message board and the stuff i posted on theirs. the connection is eroding. and even if it isn't, how would they know? all they've got is a few strings of letters on an app that's dead and dying. it's crazy lol. i gaf. i hope all my mutuals are ok and happy. hope all the kpop writers i used to follow r ok and happy. hope ure happy if u see this. if u r not then go look at the night sky. it will look the same even ten years from now. i hope parts of u still stay the same in ten years. god knows mine will
and i still FUCKING MISS FILMREELS HER AND HER GODDAMN MARASCHIANO CHERRIES
procrastinity
@hotboyjun girl what am I supposed to do with the ocean in my laptop because of the tears whose descent you caused
hotboyjun
but anyway goodnight. one day i will be as in touch with my emotions and as willing to be vulnerable to complete strangers as i used to be at thirteen. but right now im seventeen with a lot of work to do to make a good life for myself. as old as the people around me were when they first met me lol. one day there will only be lovers left alive
hotboyjun
i only knew her for a few weeks and then she deactivated DID SHE CONSIDER MY FEELINGS ON THE MATTER ?? </////3 i wonder if this is how elaine from twitter feels. im so sorry girl. i sent you one comment that sent you on a gender discovery journey. we were mutuals for months. and then i deactivated out of the blue. i don't even remember your handle just your hyunjin pfp (a screenshot of him painting from the mv of mixtape: oh) but man. i miss you girl . i miss everyone !!! and everything !!!
