I'm so stressed out and my anxiety is getting more worse day by day. I tried to reach out and talk to people about it but I just can't get any word come out of my mouth. I feel nauseous and dizzy everytime i try to speak out about my problems and worries but i don't think my family and friends understand that. I regret making them think of me as the cheerful, live of the party kind of girl. I regret covering my true feelings up in order to satisfy everyone's expectations of me. I regret leaving them a mark about me as the happy go lucky one. I wish I had been more selfish. I wish i wasn't so sensitive about things. I wish I didn't have to lie. I wish i could live a life where no one is around even if it's just for a little while. I really want to talk about everything but I'm afraid. I really want to let my frustrations out but i don't know how. I'm stuck in a repetitive cycle where I constantly regret things, anxious about a tiny little thing, worry about everything and everyone because that's just my nature. I want to be strong but i can't when i know i can't fight anymore. I can't. I really can't. Not even for myself. I'm so sorry but i will be inactive on wattpad for a while and probably all my other social medias too because my mental health is at a stake right now. I'm sorry i have to end the fight this way. I'm tired and i want to rest easy.
