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[Tuesday; 1 March, 2022; 9:46 PM]
          
          IM SO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYY
          
          It doesn't feel like I was ever depressed and all. Like, looking back at it, all those thoughts suddenly feel foreign. Like don't get me wrong, I kinda of remember the dark place I was in, but it doesn't feel like I can recall the exact emotion I went through. I feels like I've fought and I've won. 
          
          HAVE I WON? OHMYGOD- 
          
          AAAAAAAND I REALLY NEED TO MEND MY LOVE LIFE FR LIKE DUDEEEEE MY CRUSH JUST LOOKS AT ME AND I SIMP THIS ISN'T HEALTHY BEHAVIOUR 
          
          I'm in college now, and it's better than what I expected. Tiring, but better. :) 
          
          I'm just glad I'm in a better space now :D

[Monday; 18 Oct, 2021; 12:41 PM] 
          
          OKAY, SO I'M JUST HAPPY BEC IM LISTENING TO GOOD MUSIC! What else do I even want lmao?
          
          I had taken a little hiatus from writing for a couple of weeks bec i thought i'd be able to focus on preparing for entrances, but turns out that there are no more entrances, and that I couldn't stay away from writing for so long. 
          
          Since you might know already, this year, my mom lost her mother and my dad lost his father to covid, and it's kind of paradoxical when I think about it. Like, it doesn't feel like they're gone. Maybe it's just a thought I have today, bec i honestly remember feeling empty for a long time, but I don't remember the taste of it. Am I making sense? 
          
          BUT! Although I've been a little down these last few days, and I've just risen from a viral fever, I feel awfully energetic. Is it this song? Bec I'm listening to My Universe by Coldplay x BTS and even though BTS has made better songs before, this one just makes me so happy!! :D 
          
          It's the onset of winters here, and I hate it lmao. I HATE winters bec the clothes are annoying and prickly, and the weather makes me very uncomfortable. 
          
          I guess this is it for now? I'm just rambling rn lmao thanks for reading so far! 
          
          Comment 'bang chand' if you've read so far.

[Saturday; Aug 28, 2021; 8:19]
          
          My entrance went so well??? i was surprised that it went so well, bec i had to wake up at 4 am and reach the exam centre at 6:30 am. Had some cold coffee before I left so that I d on't have asleep during the exam lmaooo
          
          I was happy for the majority of the day, but then, with the quarrel between my parents, I realized that this atmosphere is too toxic for me, especially when I'm trying to heal. I told them that I wanna go to my grandma's house bec it's relatively positive. 
          
          I have no idea what else to do tbh, bec I tried talking to both of them a lot of times, but they aren't ready to reconcile. And having been raised in a family where everyone eats together every night, it is saddening to see us not eating at all. 
          
          I just want things to go back to normal, ugh

[Friday; Aug 27, 2021; 12:15 PM]
          
          I have an entrance exam tomorrow and I'm surprisingly not nervous? I mean, I should be, right? I have about zero ounces of nervousness, and it's kind of concerning. 
          
          Also, my parents still haven't made up, and my dad ain't eating anything cooked by my mom, so I'm the one who whips up some random food for them. It's been a while since we've had dinner together, and it saddens me, tbh. 
          
          I went to my dad's office twice this week, and I was sorta productive? I think I was, who knows? 
          
          Although I'm not stressed, there's some uneasy feeling in my guts. I have absolutely no idea what it's for, though. I'm just restless. 
          
          Also, I found Ezi, and she makes me feel so loved. Tbh, that's all what I want :D

[Friday; Aug 20, 2021; 3:07 PM] 
          
          My parents argued a lot last night, and now, they aren't talking to each other. I ended up crying lmao idk why- 
          
          As per me, I'm kinda okay today, since the weather is nice and the music i'm listening to is good! Sounds like a very typical day to me, tbh. At least I woke up without being yelled at. 
          
          I feel like updating something, but I can't decide which book to write, since I'm not sure about my mood either. I JUST FEEL LIKE DOING SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE KSKSDAJJDKASKSK
          
          FUCK I HAVE ENTRANCE EXAMS AND I'M ACTUALLY KINDA STRESSED
          
          I reallyyyyy don't wanna study. I've had enough lmao 
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          Also, y'all really saying 'shhh' under my first announcement XD 
          
          You guys are cute, ngl

So yeah, this is pretty random. 
          
          I initially made this to vent out, but then I realised how negative that is. I don't wanna bring myself — or anyone — down. 
          
          Therefore, this is a progress tracking account. 
          
          Nobody is interested, I know, but I just wanna do this. Consider this my very own secret diary? Shhh