lucas

woo young woo mi sol

in other news im fucking cold so i will be going to bed now

posting here cuz it's the only place where none of my friends will see it
          i am so sick and tired and i really just want to disappear forever
          it's so hard for me to date as a trans person let alone as someone in the aro spec, i feel like i'll never truly find what i want in that aspect because im not comfortable with the convenient love relationship but most people would find it too annoying to accommodate 
          my school life is going like shit, i have so many overdue assignments, i can't pay attention, im failing so many subjects, im even failing the english language which is just fucking ridiculous considering im fluent in english as demonstrated in this stupid vent. 
          my family life is also shit, i hate my stepdad, i hate him so much he's such a fucking jerk to me and my mom, not to mention he's racist, homophobic, transphobic and really fucking verbally abusive. im sick of having to hide who i am so i don't make anyone "uncomfortable". why the fuck should my identity and who i am as a person make anyone uncomfortable. not like they ever cared about me why would they start caring now. 
          but most importantly im so fucking tired of not being anyone's first fucking choice. my best friends have best friends of their own, the people i like always like other people better, there's always someone better than me, at anything i do. damn im not even my mom's first choice, because of course her piece of shit of a boyfriend and her work come first, but i can't blame her because she can't even choose HERSELF first. 
          im just so fucking tired i wanna end it
          and the funniest part about all of this is that i typed all of it here but will absolutely not be showing it to my therapist tomorrow, and i won't say a word either. because as long as i pretend im always fine, then everyone's happy.
          

IDK IF I SHOULD POST IN SPANISH OR ENGLISH CUZ NOW I MAINLY CONSUME STORIES IN ENGLISH SO IDK FUCK ME HONESTLY WHO MADE ME BILINGUAL 

dios mio que cringe que daba en el 2018 alguien que me haya dicho "che no da"

idk who needs to hear this but stop making y/n fanfics only about women
          women aren't the only one in the fandom :)

mi bida, t amo. 

a ustedes les molestaria que yo subiera un capitulo muy corto?
          es que no he tenido tiempo de ponerme a escribir

a fanboy AND a stayexolzen+? i luv ur taste❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

acabo de publicar algo que tenia en borradores desde el año pasado asi q denle amor