hufflypuffly07
finals are gonna be the death of me pls help
hufflypuffly07
TheresaRansomwood
Hello! It's been AGES since we've talked! How are you?
TheresaRansomwood
@hufflypuffly07 oop that's a really long shift- Fair enough, nationals are scary af. That's really exciting! I have my eoy showcase today :D
hufflypuffly07
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im so fucking done living here. my mom is a terf and isnt sensitive when talking about SA or domestic violence and brought it up casually today and I had a nightmare abt myself getting SAed last night and im still shaken. shes not considerate at all and she knows im queer and she said that if i want to be super adult and change my name and gender and sexuality, then i need to be super adult and be able to talk about domestic abuse and SA. whereas shes also the woman who won't call me cory bc her r@pist was named cory (i didn't know this until i came out to her and asked her to call me cory) but she can talk about actors named cory with no problem. if shes adult enough to be talking about r@pe and abuse and such, she should be adult enough to be able to separate her child from her r@pist. Im so fucking done and i want out. please.
TheresaRansomwood
@hufflypuffly07 this is a really horrible situation, and your mom is definitely in the wrong, and there isn't much I can do to stop you from running away (or alt least that's what I hope you meant by wanting to leave), but if you do run, then remember to plan miles ahead. It's really hard, running away, and you need to be smart about it. Would you like to talk sometime?
hufflypuffly07
yall im an ex mormon and the guy that im SUPER into is a mormon and he knows that im queer but i told him over text bc he lives in a diff state than me, if he wasn't a mormon, i'd want to marry him. im really really really into him but idk. idk if it's bc he's a mormon or if it's bc i only got a neutral reaction after I came out, or if its bc he never texts first but idk. i really want to give it a shot but what if i do and it ends up even worse and breaks my heart? im terrified, but all i want to do rn is talk to him
hufflypuffly07
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yall listen to this:
wednesday: english teacher tells us that our essay is due thursday at midnight. i plan on doing it thursday
thursday: in class, tells us she's adding an extra day so it's due at midnight on friday night
thursday: at 7pm emails everyone that the due date has been changed back to tonight at midnight and she doesnt take late work
this is such bullshit
hufflypuffly07
what do you do when you're so exhausted that nothing helps? Getting sushi didn't work. Watching my favorite youtube people didn't work. Getting out of the house didn't work. Facetiming my best friend didn't work. I am so tired of everything and almost everyone and I just want to cry but I know that I have too much to get done to be crying. No matter what I do, if it isn't on my to do list, I feel guilty for doing it. But I'm too tired for my to do list. My car just got totaled and I'm home alone with my dad and one of my friends is killing me inside and i just can't handle all of this
sorry for the rant
ahsokas_second_saber
@hufflypuffly07 been there. there’s no perfect solution. the best, most immediate thing you can do is to give yourself grace. your energy is finite, so at some point, you’re going to run out of it. it doesn’t mean you’ve failed, or that you’re lazy, or unworthy, or really anything else. it just means that you need to rest and recharge, but you can only do that if you give yourself permission to. maybe that means taking a nap, or going outside, or listening to music, or something else. whatever you do, my best advice is to pick one (emphasis on ONE) activity or action that is low-stimulating and commit to doing it for like half an hour or more. BUT. if there’s something in your life that’s draining you like this, and you have the power to change it, you should. you have to get to the root of the problem for the symptoms to improve. good luck, friend. i’m rooting for you.
TheresaRansomwood
@hufflypuffly07 yeah. I have. Maybe try getting a full nights worth of sleep, and what really helps me is having clean sheets, wearing comfortable clothes, and I take melatonin (3-5 mg) and it really helps with my insomnia
hufflypuffly07
I've been publishing a bunch of poems I've written, please vote and comment if you like them!!!
hufflypuffly07
hey yall, i published my poems on Neobook, my username is @corynevels6907 if you wanna check it out. I'm also going to publish a couple there that I won't be publishing here :)
hufflypuffly07
yall im doing a summer class and im dying inside- who wants to help me
hufflypuffly07
yall ik you probably dont care but this is the only place i can talk about it without most of my friends seeing. im non binary but i have super strict mormon parents so im not out at home. i go by cory and use they/them pronouns at school but i still have to write my deadname on papers in case my parents see them and all that. i came out to most of my teachers recently and most of them have really been trying their best. I've got two really good friends who started using they/them pronouns shortly after I did and I love them both so much. The first one that came out got an androgynous haircut and can dress how they want, but they don't have a binder yet so that makes them dysphoric. The other one who came out after just got an androgynous haircut, their binder just came in, and they're going to start taking voice lessons during the summer. I'm so happy for both of them. I really am. But I also am really jealous about how accepting their parents are and that they can visibly transition. It can be hard to be around either one of them sometimes because I'm just so jealous and sometimes it even makes me angry. Why couldn't I get accepting parents. Why do I have to hide myself everywhere except for at school. I don't want my friends to feel bad bc i really do love them but i just want to be where they are in transitioning. I want to live with my sister or with one of my friends so that i could freely transition. i dont want to be angry every time i see my friends but i don't know how to stop it. i really just need help
TheresaRansomwood
That fricking sucks. You really don't deserve that! I can't imagine what I would do if my parents weren't ok with me being bi, but I want you to know that we all care for you so what pronouns you use or length of your hair will never change that fact!
ahsokas_second_saber
i’m so sorry you’re stuck in this situation. it’s not fair and you don’t deserve it, but i promise it’s not forever. you have to hold on to that, no matter what.