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I wanna say sorry to you guys… I’m relapsing so hard rn.
I’m getting the help I need, but for the last couple months I’ve barely been able to concentrate on anything but food, cals, etc.
I’m trying to get my shit together so I plan on writing more really soon. Bring creative has really helped me in my recovery journey.
Got the “if ur any lighter next time you’re going to the hospital” talk, again, and while I’m afraid of lots of aspects of recovery… I’m afraid of doctors more.
It’s 4:30am and I’m still struggling to take even one bite from the cold plate of dinner in front of me.
Ana is no joke, Ana even this week is passing out at the gym, not being able to go out with your friends because there might be an expectation to eat, hiding from everyone you love, giving in to your need to be in control so much, that you loose control to that need. Ana has the highest mortality rate of any mental illness.
It’s been really comforting to remind myself I was put on this earth to do more than loose weight, and so were you.
If ur struggling, you’re not alone. You deserve food, you deserve to feel good about your body. There is help. Keep fighting
1800 ED HOPE