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!Vent!
This has been in my mind for too long, I knew that they didn't mean it (I hope), but their words are affecting me a lot, me and my oldest brother had a fight - like we always did, it was over dumb thing and things escalated quickly, he called me a slut or in our language- pokpok, it hurts hearing my own blood call me that, we fight yes but I never said anything like that. i say things like "dumb", "idiot" , tanga, bobo, etc.. but never like that.
Another thing was a few months back
It was my sister, she probably already had forgotten about it, but for me it has been carved into my brain, making it hard to forget even if I tried to bury it down.
Me and my sister had a fight - again over dumb things, it was over me not helping her over chores because I already have been doing hers and mine every Monday - Friday, I threw a fit because I want to rest and want her to do chores since it's just Saturday and Sunday when she has to do her chores, and when Monday comes it's all me again, we had a fight, then she suddenly says "sana mamatay ka na" or "I hope you die"
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It was dumb, we had a fight over chores, and I thought it's just a fight that we usually do, like fight over makeup, clothes and over our room. But I guess that fight was different, I ignored her for 5 days until it returned to normal again, she started talking to me again, she never said sorry. Out of topic but I dislike her boyfriend fr, ever since she got with that boy she started acting so dramatic, she started to curse off my parents, called our food(which was rice and chicken) dog food- like what?.
Neways back to the topic, that time I was sobbing like crazy, thinking that I should - myself since my sister wants me to - , I was just so upset hearing my sister say that.
That's all, I just needed to get this off my chest since it felt so heavy and felt like i should - myself earlier🌚