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HELLO

OHH EMM GEEE IVE FINALLY RETURNED 2 YEARS LATER IN THE FLESH

2020 is almost over.... 
          Post this on 20 people's profiles that made your 2020 special!! 
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          Thanks for being such an awesome support and friend Eleanor x

Haha who wants to join my pity party,
          
          only member: Me the disappointment

It’s two am I have school at nine. I wake up at seven. My phones at 9%. 
          
          
          The question is why. Well, I started using TikTok again. And I’m turning into a stereotypical teenage girl with a crush on Edward Cullen help me.

So hey, it hasn't been that long.
          
          
          SOOO I want to write a twilight AU I suppose you could call it. I have a sort of rough draft Idea of what I want, and at least another chapter of Skyfall will come out BEFORE I might publish this one. And it was one of those ideas that came to me at 1 am while I was reading twilight. Don't come for me.

Hah shoutout to all those people up at 2 am but have school tomorrow and have to wake up at like 5 am 
          
          
          Totally not me..

Smh woke up today to 75 notifications, only to find out more than half of them are from a book i haven’t even started:/

Just love how the only time people check my post is when I announce it :)
          Have a good day or sumthin

I am running out of patience, I want to vent but everyone keeps walking into where I am and I have to close the tab and IT DOESN'T FRICKEN SAVE so I write it all over again and Im not having a good day. Yesterday I brokedown twice and almost hyperventilated and I HAD NOTHING I COULD VENT TO 
          
          It was me and my thoughts of killing myself and that I'm a dissapointment, waste or money and space, That my friends wouldnt care if I died, having my mom compare me to people who are CLEARLY better than me and when I confront her about it Im in tears and she doesn't give a damn. My parents don't care that their the reason I cry and tell myself "Make them Happy" at night. I feel stupid knowing that others have it ten times worse and  I'm just being a crybaby. Not to mention I feel like my "friends" hang out with me only out of pity and My parents only care about stupid grades not me. I'm had a horrible past 24 hours and just want to  cry. not like I can even do that in peace though. 
          
          Last night when I  was crying my eyes out, my dad came in and told me to stop crying, oblivius to the fact I'm crying because of him! and told me that they care about my GRADES and don't want me to fail, and my momd the worst she doesn't care I'm crying dhe just makes me feel worse and worse about my already low self esteem. None of this makes any sense but I'm on the verge of crying and just needed to vent. I try to be optimistic but sometimes its hard, everyone who is my "friend" probably thinks im Happy all the time but I'm not. 
          
          Hope you have a day better than mine, Elle