hypenteroid

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sometimes i just have this thought where my brain asked to myself, "are you really gonna chose this one? are you sure that your decision is gonna go well?". 
          	
          	i've started writing since early 2020, i was still a very immature person at that time, all i know is that my only hobby that i know im gonna do till i die is pretty much anything related to drawing. i loved to draw, so much. and i was always so hyped up whenever i heard someone praises my works, even if i know that my art never really turned out that good back then.
          	
          	im a very inconsistent person, sometimes i draw in this style and sometimes in that style. but i dont give a fuck cause all i care to do is just practicing and practicing, and repeat until i can finally tell the positive progress of my drawing skill.
          	
          	i just kept drawing, until i found something thats quite distracting myself from my little art world. it was the world of writing, and the world of fiction. i looked up to a story on wattpad that my friend recommends me, and i basically was just drawn into the app, or just a digitally-written stories in general.
          	
          	at first, i was only interested in reading, because i enjoy to lie in my bed and just scroll through the pages. but when i found out that my friend is also a writer here, i am also interested and decided to give it a shot. well, in an unserious manner, ofcourse.
          	
          	the very first book that i've written was called "Need A Moment". it was a hetero book with this girl named seola as the female lead character, and seonghwa as her– you know, so-called boss who's very secretly had a feeling for her. cringe and very 2018 kpop fictional love story core, i know.
          	
          	at that time, i was always acting very tired after i wrote about a 400 words-ish chapter (and i will not lie, i still do), and will be feeling very proud of myself for every letters that i've put in the story.

hypenteroid

i left, not because i wanted to stop writing, but because i dont feel like i was "me" when im writing here. i stopped ulting ateez and moved to enha, i also stopped reading wattpad and moved to twitter au's. its all mixed up, in a bad way, seriously.
          	  
          	  lastly, i just wanna thank you for all of the supports that i've been gaining from our little world. 563 reads, 50 votes, and 12 parts was such a stormy, long way to go through. but i hope you all enjoy the non-lasting stay of my joonghwa story.
          	  
          	  i'll say, i changed. it can be seen in a bad way or vice versa. but i promised, that my love for keeping up the community of the fictional kpop story authors will always stay the same.
          	  
          	  it was a long journey, and is such an unforgetable one. i hope we can meet again, later on twitter. even if you dont know me as a wattpad author, and even if i dont know you as a wattpad reader, i'll keep up for your love.
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hypenteroid

@hypenteroid everytime i clicked publish, i always giggle to myself, imagining that people would love my story and i'll become famous for this particular story.
          	  
          	  and that tingle-ing feeling lasted for quite a while, it takes a few days to get to 18 reads and 2 votes, but i still get the euphoria. i am proud of myself and my creation, i feel like these very few numbers already payed all my little efforts.
          	  
          	  then, i decided to scrap my head, and rearrange my focus so i can be more consistent here in writing fictional stories. i read books, i explored new genres, i do all i could do to explore the world of an author, because i can finally feel the joy of writing. and i loved it.
          	  
          	  i finally planned and imagined a plot for my very first serious book, the progress of it was very slow in my head, but im quite fast when i typed it on my keyboard. i was just so happy that i can finally found something to do that dont need to "waste" too much money, unlike paintings and drawings.
          	  
          	  and there you have it, my "our little world" book, thats previously called "how can i do this". it was a joonghwa book, an the genre was angst, just like the books i usually read. i can say that im finally consistent here, i took care of the book really well even if i still lack so many stuff.
          	  
          	  but it doesnt go really well. at the end though, i still disappoint everyone because i still choose to quit. i left the book untouched for weeks and the whole account for months, only to give every followers of mine more and more fake promises.
          	  
          	  its not anyone's fault. it was the timing, and myself. i can say that im way too young to actually gave up all my free time into writing. i was still in my unsure phase, i was growing up. and that time, i was lost in my current reality, everything in my life was mixed up. my personality, my mindset, my hobby, my likings, and my time.
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hypenteroid

this message may be offensive 
sometimes i just have this thought where my brain asked to myself, "are you really gonna chose this one? are you sure that your decision is gonna go well?". 
          
          i've started writing since early 2020, i was still a very immature person at that time, all i know is that my only hobby that i know im gonna do till i die is pretty much anything related to drawing. i loved to draw, so much. and i was always so hyped up whenever i heard someone praises my works, even if i know that my art never really turned out that good back then.
          
          im a very inconsistent person, sometimes i draw in this style and sometimes in that style. but i dont give a fuck cause all i care to do is just practicing and practicing, and repeat until i can finally tell the positive progress of my drawing skill.
          
          i just kept drawing, until i found something thats quite distracting myself from my little art world. it was the world of writing, and the world of fiction. i looked up to a story on wattpad that my friend recommends me, and i basically was just drawn into the app, or just a digitally-written stories in general.
          
          at first, i was only interested in reading, because i enjoy to lie in my bed and just scroll through the pages. but when i found out that my friend is also a writer here, i am also interested and decided to give it a shot. well, in an unserious manner, ofcourse.
          
          the very first book that i've written was called "Need A Moment". it was a hetero book with this girl named seola as the female lead character, and seonghwa as her– you know, so-called boss who's very secretly had a feeling for her. cringe and very 2018 kpop fictional love story core, i know.
          
          at that time, i was always acting very tired after i wrote about a 400 words-ish chapter (and i will not lie, i still do), and will be feeling very proud of myself for every letters that i've put in the story.

hypenteroid

i left, not because i wanted to stop writing, but because i dont feel like i was "me" when im writing here. i stopped ulting ateez and moved to enha, i also stopped reading wattpad and moved to twitter au's. its all mixed up, in a bad way, seriously.
            
            lastly, i just wanna thank you for all of the supports that i've been gaining from our little world. 563 reads, 50 votes, and 12 parts was such a stormy, long way to go through. but i hope you all enjoy the non-lasting stay of my joonghwa story.
            
            i'll say, i changed. it can be seen in a bad way or vice versa. but i promised, that my love for keeping up the community of the fictional kpop story authors will always stay the same.
            
            it was a long journey, and is such an unforgetable one. i hope we can meet again, later on twitter. even if you dont know me as a wattpad author, and even if i dont know you as a wattpad reader, i'll keep up for your love.
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hypenteroid

@hypenteroid everytime i clicked publish, i always giggle to myself, imagining that people would love my story and i'll become famous for this particular story.
            
            and that tingle-ing feeling lasted for quite a while, it takes a few days to get to 18 reads and 2 votes, but i still get the euphoria. i am proud of myself and my creation, i feel like these very few numbers already payed all my little efforts.
            
            then, i decided to scrap my head, and rearrange my focus so i can be more consistent here in writing fictional stories. i read books, i explored new genres, i do all i could do to explore the world of an author, because i can finally feel the joy of writing. and i loved it.
            
            i finally planned and imagined a plot for my very first serious book, the progress of it was very slow in my head, but im quite fast when i typed it on my keyboard. i was just so happy that i can finally found something to do that dont need to "waste" too much money, unlike paintings and drawings.
            
            and there you have it, my "our little world" book, thats previously called "how can i do this". it was a joonghwa book, an the genre was angst, just like the books i usually read. i can say that im finally consistent here, i took care of the book really well even if i still lack so many stuff.
            
            but it doesnt go really well. at the end though, i still disappoint everyone because i still choose to quit. i left the book untouched for weeks and the whole account for months, only to give every followers of mine more and more fake promises.
            
            its not anyone's fault. it was the timing, and myself. i can say that im way too young to actually gave up all my free time into writing. i was still in my unsure phase, i was growing up. and that time, i was lost in my current reality, everything in my life was mixed up. my personality, my mindset, my hobby, my likings, and my time.
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hypenteroid

hiii i was just randomly log back in to check on stuff but then i remembered its my bday xd its not related to that but i kinda miss the vibe here... its been over a year after i joined the wattpad writer community and i really have no regrets on doing so. all of this was the start of my journey, and is a part of my writing history. i really wanna inform yall that i do improved a lot lot lot more now, i can confidently write in both bahasa and english. but it was all thanks to wattpad who brings me to this point, to this level. it was all gonna be impossible if yall werent the ones who support me also, i was always so hyped up when someone praised my work. and even though i havent start my plan to write for the public again, the memory of your supports was still lingering inside my head, it was lovely, really.
          
          thank you for being here, with me, guiding me, whoever stayed and whoever reads this i love you all, always ♥️

hypenteroid

Hellooooo, its Ray :] I don't know what to announce other than the main topic so its gonna be short. After a long time of resting and deciding, I finally made up my mind to finally quit Wattpad. I know that I just don't have any more hope to stay because Wattpad isn't even my thing ever since I started to get inactive. But even though Im leaving, my love for writing fictional stories won't fade, I'll still post an AU through my new twitter account which I won't tell for my own good :] Again, sorry for the sudden notice and the fact that Im too quiet all this time. Leaving everyone disappointed. Thank you for all of the sweet moments and experiences. And if I ever cameback, I promise I will do a better work.
          
          Lots of love, Ray <3