Pearlie✨

Guys what do yall think about the nct 2020?? 
          
          
          The members gave us so many “hints” thesedays and honestly i’ll be so very sad if it turns out to be just a joke or smthng :( as someone who loves and cherish all 21 members with all of my heart i really want nct 2020 to happen of course i support them unit by unit too but remembering nct 2018 makes me want nct 2020 to happen even more. All the great concepts, great songs, and the great interactions was EVERYTHING i ever wanted and yearbooks was amazing, i loved how every member had something significant that showed his name and all
          
          And 2018 was the year that got so many ppl added into the fandom. I remember making 3 of my friends nctzens thanks to nct 2018 i think the concept got a lot of attention that time, i might be wrong tho. I just really hope nct 2020 will really happen it would be amazing

PROTECT IU
          PROTECT TAEYEON
          PROTECT YERI
          PROTECT TAEYONG
          PROTECT JUNGWOO
          PROTECT CHAN
          
          PROTECT EVERY IDOL CAUSE WE DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING IN THEIR LIFE AND WE CANNOT LOSE ANOTHER ANGEL BECAUSE WE COULDNT PROTECT THEM AND HELP THEM.
          
          Those idols i counted had been getting hate comments for forever but we dont know what other idols are also feeling like that. So please, PLEASE be careful about your words, please understand their life is already so hard, please know that one word that comes out of your mouth can make or ruin someone else's life.
          
          We lost so many angels already, hara is one of them too now...and i can't take anymore...i really can't...
          
          I hope she is resting in peace now...

Its my midtearms week so im sorry for my lack of updates, dears :( my last exam is tomorrow, wish mw luck uwu

I want to thank everyone for their kind and encoruging(i probably spelt that wrong im so sorry) words they wrote under my message in my board and for the dms too. 
          
          I was in a very dark space and was about to do something very....bad. i felt like no one would care if i disappeared. I felt like they would even be happier without me. I thought nobody loved me. Unfortunately thats what depression does. It makes you think no one loves you even tho they say they do. Its not that you dont trust them, its because you dont see a reason to why they would love you. Cause its always hard to love your own self...at least it is for me. I'm still trying to learn how to love myself and its not easy at all. I feel like i will never feel enough. Be enough.
          
          But your words really made me feel better. Please be so proud of yourself cause you changed someone's bad decision that time you wrote that comments. I really am thankful to you.
          
          And i want to say that i'm always here for you too. If you ever need somebody, im here. We can heal each other. Like how that one person said once "we're all angels with one wings, we can only fly if we hug each other" ♡
          
          I love you all, thank you for everything ♡

Tw; depression,suicidal thoughts
          
          All i ever wanted was to be enough. Really, i didnt ask for much, i just wanted to be enough. But i am not and i'll never be...i dont even know why i keep writing books and stories when i know no one likes them. They probably suck. Like their writer. Like me. Maybe i do it as a distraction, maybe to feel better. Sometimes it works, sometimes it dont. I just want it all to end. And i don't think anyone except maybe 3 people in my life would care if i was gone. I'm sorry i dont even know why i'm writing this here. I just can't keep it inside me anymore. I just want to be enough...

You can make ship requests for my new ship book guys you can just request a fake text/imagine or their moments/pics and i'll make a chapter for u

Guys GUYS there is a zoo in LA and there is a new born pudu there. They noticed many people say donghyuck looks like a pudu so they decided to make a thing where ww can donate to make the new born pudu named "haechan". PLS donate if you can!! If you cant then please spread it around so other people can see it too. Lets make donghyuck happy
          
          The twitter account's name is "los angelas zoo and botanical gardens" their url is "LAZoo"

Im actually reading all your book because this is art 
          But i cant vote cause wattpad dont want to... 
          
          I LOVE YOUR BOOKS 

Hello.. You like MarkHyuck couple? I also. Let’s friends! ^_^ please follow back my account. Thanks^_^

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