@hyunjiinofficial
Hey! Sorry I’m two days late… but wow it’s been two years already?! I miss you and I wish that I realised what you meant that day and did something about it. Love you!!
And just so you know. Skz have released such good music. You wouldn’t love it
I don't think I would've let you go that day, I think I would've begged for you not leave, and.. the same thing would've kept happening everytime you tried. I don't wish that today wasn't the day you died. I wish that we could go back in time to april and I could save you from all the pain. I'll admit it, I haven't kept my promise of remembering you every day through pain, that I've stopped hurting, something that I didn't think was possible a year or two ago. The tears won't come, and I don't know why. Maybe I used them all up last year. Old nyx would be disappointed in me for not crying, for not sobbing for you to come back. But I think you would understand. Atleast I hope you will. I've always been scared of forgetting you, and today it felt as if my worst fear was confirmed. I didn't cry for you, I couldn't. Sometimes I feel guilting for "moving on", for healing. But then I remember how everytime I watch a video about a friend, you pop up in my head. How every sad song reminds me of you. How every time someone mentions April, I remember you. How I used to look for you in everything I do. Maybe it's selfish. It probably is, but, that's all I have of you now. Fleeting memories that come and go, like a shadow. I promised myself a year ago that I'll keep your memory alive by letting the guilt and pain stay in my heart. But I think I've realized that you wouldn't want that. You'd want me to be happy. And I think I am, after realizing how I somehow find you in everything I do now, without even looking sometimes. And I think that's enough, for you to stay beside me like a shadow. With how often I think about you, that's it hard to notice you're actually there. I'm sorry I didn't cry for you this year, but I'm glad you were a part of my life, and that you will be by my side for the rest of my life, no matter how many years go by, I'll always remember you as the Angel who endured so much, and I'll always be so proud of you for coming however far you did.
-your potato
Ps- I text aki regularly, though she hasn't replied in 2 years. I still hope she will
I wish we had a second chance at goodbye.
It's been two years today time really does move so fast, doesn't it?
I hope you're having a good time wherever you are & that you're happy.
Recently, I read a book that completely ended me. There were a few lines in it that instantly made me think of you and tbh I don't think I've ever cried that much while reading before. I wish things had been different & that your name wasn't the one that came to my mind when I read those words. I also wrote a little something for you, yk I so bad wish things hadn't unfolded the way they did, wish you could have stayed and lived the life you deserved but no matter what you'll always be the strongest person I've ever known here, you fought so well and bravely. I'll always miss you & the conversations we never got to have.
Wherever you are now, I hope God has been kind to you.
I hope you're happy and healthy<3
I love you so much twin
this one is for you twin<3
My lil bright shining star
Lightening up the whole night sky
You know they say when you look into the stars
You're looking at the pieces of the past
So I felt happy that I'm staring at you
And I wish we had some time to talk about things more.
My little tiny shining star
You make the whole sky light up
And I know I have to wait for the dark
Because that's when I see your light shinin'
And I wish you had more time
Everyone here misses you a lot
There are still so many things to say
And so many memories we could have made
For a second it feels like yesterday
When we were all fighting over something dumb
The kind of things that felt so big back then
Now I'd give anything to have just one
And I hope we meet again
And fate remains kind to you then.
Miss you ♥️
Even after so much time has passed, the ache I feel knowing you're no longer here is the same as I felt that day.
Still wishing you happiness beyond this world, rest well angel.
Happy 18th to you ml! You would've been of legal age <33 Hyunjin released a song today too, its so nostalgic for some reason. Atp I believe everything he does has something to do with you. I hope you're having a party up there or something to celebrate. I might bake brownies or cookies for you, if I dont burn them TT (almost forgot emojis dont work in wattpad) I'm making a crochet leebit, so maybe I'll name it after you, hehe. How about, leena? Oohh, like lina on skz familyy, yess. I'll make that dress for leebit that I wore in your wedding, it'll be soo cute <333. Anyways, have fun lovie, I hope you have a wonderful day
idk you but I hope your chilling up there and rip
You'll be 18 soon as well