im literally jinx guys trust

I remember how alive I used to be and I took that so for granted

My uncle is coming to Canada and might live with me for a week I'm actually going to fucking kms I'm not joking 

"At least my uncle isn't a weird pervert who forced me to drink alcohol at 9 years old"
          
          ...

Mango?

yo ur so tuff like you're literally jinx

I love you so much Hiral. I’m so sorry for everything you’ve been through, you are the strongest girl I know and you’re too young to be going through this, I am so sorry. You’re going to ace your exam, you’re going to be FINE. and ykw, if you’re not, who fucking cares?? Is anyone going to hold it against you in ten years? “Oh Hiral failed a piano exam”. No, they’re not. I know it seems like such a big thing but this is only a small phase in your life Hiral. You have so much to live for. I’m here whenever you want to talk to me, message me. I’ll always reply. 

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          I want to die, i want to fucking die
          Idc about getting banned in this account so ill just say it
          If anyone doesnt know im @twinkletoes553 
          I attempted to kms twice this year
          I was struggling with sh in 6th grade...and i stopped in 7th grade. Im a year and a week clean. But holy shit i want to relapse SO bad. so bad
          I have a piano exam im not even ready for in less than two weeks and im stressing SO MUCH my hair is falling sm 
          IVE BEEN PRACTICING FOR 5 HOURS A DAY IM NOT JOKING
          and yall dont know how fucking mad my parents will me if i dont clear this exam
          I dont have much friends, not even on wp 
          Not even joking im ACTUALLY friends with i think like 3 ppl
          And schoolwork bro SCHOOL WORK
          I cant keep up with shit
          And im being fucking replaced by this other girl so thats so fun
          Im no ones best friend and thats literally a fact btw like dont even try to convince me otherwise 
          And if anyone tells ONE MORE TIME "it gets better in highschool"
          Shut. The. Fuck. Up.
          Thank you for the advice but i get it i dont need to hear it for the 1000th time. Especially when im 100% convinced it gets worse.
          I have eating issues because i STARVED myself for dayssss in 6th grade and a bit of 7th...i regret it sm
          I cant eat without being sick or throwing up
          In the summer of 5th to 6th grade i got SA'd by my uncle in india, and i didn't even realize until this year. fortunately he moved from the city i go to whenever i visit but i still hate going there. I hate it so much so much so much. I feel sick just slightly talking abt it...
          My parents dont help either they scold me for every minor inconvenience and if my mom is really mad she hits my brother which is scary asf...and i learned she used to hit me too when i was younger. 
          Sure i get stuff, i went to a skz concert, i have albums, i get good clothes but idc about all of that i just want parents to stop yelling at me and each other all the time...
          
          And um yeah thats my big rant lol idk what else to say

.......devanshi?