The cut that ALWAYS bleeds
A song my girl Jood used to sing every time we talk about music, which was her favourite topic to yap about.
I still hear her singing in my dreams every single night, it’s just that I can’t get it off my mind, and I wish I don’t.
Personally, I hate this song, don’t get me wrong, I love conan gray and everything and the song is so good, but it just don’t feel the same without her anymore.
But hey, Joodie! I still love to remember when you and Ieno used to sing this song together on discord, even though your voices sounded so horrible that me and the girls used to cry every time hearing your ugly ahh vocals, but it was so fun back then.
(Reo and Ieno still cry every time this song comes on our shared playlist, it makes them remember you and how you used to sing your heart out to each lyric)
I still have recordings from 2020 of your singing, every time I play it with girls we laugh like the old days, but those laughers will always end with us crying eventually.
Oh and Ieno hates this song so freaking much, because you are not there to sing it with her, she misses you so bad, she misses you the most among us, you were like a mom to her, like the bis sis she never had.
I know you are absolutely not gonna see this but just know that I love you and miss you so much, I still have your little present that you gave me when I was in the hospital, you gave it to me because it was my first ever serious illness and the first time I’ve been not able to come to school regularly, but now I go to the hospital every day like I live there, funny isn’t?
(You were the one who kept me company in the hospital, but now its none’s turn to do that! We love you!)
Miss you my Ji and rest in peace!
From your very loved girl, Reno!
♡