hyunnie1901

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! 新年快乐，万事如意！

hyunnie1901

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So yeah I had a nervous breakdown when I was about to collect the golden paper yesterday. That was because my mum kinda predicted the score I would get and my english teacher (she's so lovely!!) came to me saying my grade was alright to her - she said it w a straight face on and it freaks me out as it's unusual of her. 
          
          Okay, so being the second in the queue gave me the advantage to deal w the emotional torture quick, but I still wasn't prepared to receive. When I sat on that damn chair, my hands were trembling so badly (which my Phy tcher saw and laughed) and I couldn't sign my name properly. What's worse was I couldn't breath and my teacher kept asking if I want to see my results or not. She knew I was panicking alot and told me to breath but I just couldn't. Anyways, I told myself to deal the shit and lied to her saying I'm alright. I distinctively heard her say "I think you might like your results" and damn. I gasped. I couldn't believe my eyes though I'm wearing contacts. 
          I
          Passed
          My
          English!
          
          And guess what...
          
          My most hated subject, Phy, got a distinction. Like YA I HATE IT AND IT'S MY WORST SUBJ BUT DUDE. YOU JUST DID NOT GAVE ME THAT GRADE. 
          
          I was kind of ecstatic, ending me up in tears. Well my best friend was there for me and I stained her bag strap plus uni w my eyes sweat. 
          
          Yesterday was really playing with my emotions and up till now I couldn't believe I met my expectations. I have absolutely no intentions to boast my score but I have the urge to share how emotionally affected I was over numbers and a paper. Right now, my main concern is which school I want to go next. :)

hyunnie1901

Okay so I'm going back go school tomorrow to collect my O's results. I'm really clueless what I should feel and everyone tells me I will do fine. It's like I don't have self confidence right now but others have faith in me, which is just super weird... urgh since when do numbers on a certificate rule my life so much?