@i4livies
already tired of writing down and reading my psychology materials to revision for my test tomorrow and I haven't even made it to the brain part yet <//3
@i4livies You can do it darling! Akina and my OC’s you are in love with are rooting for you!❤️
Play With Fire by Sam Tinnesz and Yacht Money as Kaede’s theme song
@REBORN-GODDESS I'M PRETTY SURE I HAVE THAT IN HER PLAYLIST BUT I'LL HAVE TO ADD IT SHE'S SO REP CODED TOO
ELODIE HEAR ME OUT
maybe one day I'll be able to actually feel pretty and comfortable with myself and stop comparing myself with other people (including my own friends), which immediately brings my mood down and makes me want to avoid or be out of situations immediately
@i4livies it would be presumptuous of me to assume I knew how you are feeling, but just know this: if you need a shoulder, I’m always here for you, and even though I don’t know how you look, I already know based on your personality that you’re a gorgeous, beautiful human being. don’t rush the process; just remember that you deserve love and there are people willing to help you through it in the meantime <333
@i4livies No but I definitely understand how this feels, it takes time and please don’t be hard on yourself when you do, it takes time to unlearn❤️
Happy halloween everyone!! If you dress up, what will you dress up as? I'm going as like a mix between Lydia Deetz and Chappell Roan type of makeup <3
ELODIE! CHIA’S CHARACTER BIO IS FINALLY HERE!
Yesterday, I catched the boat to watch The Phantom of the Opera with my grandma and it was absolutely beautiful, it had been one of my dreams since I saw the promotions of it when I traveled to London when I was like twelve, and I'm super happy I got to see it last night. I had no idea that here it was going to be in English though ( I thought it was a Portuguese adaption ) but thankfully they had like translating pannels so my grandma got to understand what they said. And in the end, I learned that who played Carlotta is Portuguese and she like made a speech in Portuguese too?? I had no idea
@i4livies Omg that sounds like such a beautiful experience, I’m glad you and your grandma had a beautiful time<333
@i4livies ahhh that sounds amazing!! ive been meaning to see it for ages but there's never been a good time </3
Looking for the will to study for my history test on Thursday ( I'm cooked )
okay i seriously have a crying problem but it was for a good reason - i had already spoken how i'm going to have another cousin, and my other maternal aunt/godmother who is the mom of my cousin/goddaughter is pregnant again so i'm going to have another one and i'm so overjoyed, I broke down crying so ugly when she told me. my cousins might be little shits but they're my little shits and i wouldn't trade them for anything else, so i'm happy for the arrival of my fourth and fifth cousins <3
Genuine question for those who currently identify as lesbian: how did you came from terms with your orientation and did you ever feel conflicted about coming forward to identify yourself as such?
I read the lesbian masterdoc ( I don't know if it's the most reliable source, if not pls lmk ) and I came to identify myself with a lot of the items written in there and I've been going through this back and forward debate between identifying as sapphic and lesbian because 1. I >know< without a doubt that i feel genuine romantic and whatnot attraction towards women and have a very clear ( to me ) preference for women, however i have a hard time understanding if i could possibly also experience any sort of attraction towards men or if it's just me not being able to tell that apart from platonic. And apologies if this does sound wrong but in general, I feel like it's a bit scary to identify as a lesbian, not only because i have yet to came out to my mom ( and i am closeted for a major part of my family with the exception of my dad, my brother and his gf, one of my aunts and my maternal grandma - who all had a positive reaction ) and also because a bit of compulsory heterosexuality. But in the meantime, I will continue identifying with sapphic because it is the label that feels more comfortable and reasons more how I feel currently, I don't know if any of that made sense and thank you to anyone who had the patience to read through all this❤️
@i4livies no, thank /you/ for being brave enough to venture down this journey and sharing a part of it with us. navigating orientation is a difficult path, so I really admire the bravery you've showcased by even asking this question. personally, while I do not identify as a lesbian, I also recently read the lesbian masterdoc and identified with a lot of the things written there--I think what you said at the end is what's most important at the end of the day: choosing the label that you feel is comfortable and reasons more with what you feel currently. for me, that's pan, and if for you, that's sapphic, that's perfectly all right. just remember that you should always put yourself first, you will have supporters on your journey if you need them (so happy for you to hear that some of your family had a positive reaction btw!! <33), and that sometimes at the end of the day you don't always need a label. love is love & you are you <333
@i4livies im not a lesbian, but i do understand feeling confused or conflicted with the identity you give yourself. i struggled with my gender identity and finding the right words for it for a long time before finally settling on something comfortable. all the words are is labels. nobody has to fit a label perfectly in every way, all that matters is that it’s something you feel describes /you/ best.
@i4livies Whatever you feel is right for you, we love and support you Elodie darling<333