I think this all day, that if I never existed, I won't ever have to suffer all the pain. I won't have t suffer all the shitty exams and also this horrible life. Never had to enjoy life, nor this pain. Don't know what did I do which made me suffer. Don't know what else is gonna be in my life. But I know that its both good and bad. Maybe a girlfriend, maybe a bully, maybe I'll be famous, maybe I'll not live anymore again. Just this life, and forever living in the next. But if I didn't exist, I won't go to either living a life of good and bad or a life of pain or melody the next. I don't know what to do in life. I don't have anyone right now. Who'll know what I know. Who'll know what I think. Who'll know what I might do- nobody. I don't understand this living. Either not existing is better, or death, if possible. I just wait for whats gonna happen. Don't want anything bad.. but not good either....