Before I start this letter, I just wanted to tell you guys that I cried typing this. I'm sorry. I really do.
Okay so... For the past years, starting from 2019 I guess, everything seemed so blurry. I got depressed, I got anxiety, I tried to kill myself, negative words came out of even more and my ex-crush broke my heart terribly.
I know... You guys might've asked, "what's this all have to do with you being a fanfiction author?". Let me explain. So I've been searching for their (I won't mention names) news. It is said that, "because of the shippers fans had, their bond is broken". "(Name) is depressed because he got mean comments on how he rejected the (Name) shippers"
Honestly, I don't blame you guys on this. I don't blame anyone nor everyone. It's just that I feel them. Me, myself, I was shipped with my teacher back then. It was really awkward and I felt goosebumps. I tried to say that I'm not into the teacher, but they're like "stop lying. We knew you liked him". And some were like, ew. Some were like, "just admit it". Some were understanding.
And I can't stand them getting hate comments on how they treat or reply back to their shippers. I burst out in tears because the mean comments also got me. It gives me flashbacks on how depressed I was. I feel them. Really.
So, I won't make this letter long, but I hope you guys can understand on why I'm leaving myself from being a fanfiction author. I will leave this letter for a week before I finally will delete all of my work (and maybe delete wattpad).
I won't stop supporting LGBTQ. Cuz they also have the rights to be free. But I will stop shipping unless they're playing a gay role or is gay in real life.
Lots of love,
Marshmellow
If you have any questions, feel free to ask.
