although my friends say that i'm a really happy person, within myself, i know that i'm very sad. 
yes there are times that i am really happy. but its like i'm happy but, the sadness remains. i don't know why..
they say, the key of having a desirable life is to love God and make him the master of your life. I do, i really do, i mean i Love God, but i feel that there's still something missing ..

i have a great family and a'lot of friends.. this sounds kinda pathetic but i know i'm longing for something ..
for someone rather. that would fill the gaps that makes me lonely.
yeah i had a boyfriend once, but i was fooled.
i had guys whom we had mutual understanding but i always end up being hurt.
WHY? ...
I tried several outrageous ways of making myself happy but i wasn't satisfied at all..
i even ended up hurting myself .. oh really i regret i did that
anyway

most people judge by a person''s appearance
or should i say, to their uploaded pictures and DPs
lemme tell you this..
you may be looking at the happiest person in the world, that would be me
but look deeply through my sheepishly happy eyes,
and then you'll see ..
vacant, absence ... nothing


i know i'm weird .. a musically inclined emo maybe
but who cares? i am who i am, and humanity made this to me
i know i should push myself to be happy
but honestly, not all happiness could be found by yourself.