iamafellowhuman

I know most of my Wattpad friends don't read these anymore, but I wanted to say it anyway.
          
          I got a kitten. Late last year, and he's been sick for a while. He lost almost all feeling in his back legs and hasn't been eating or drinking. Last Monday, he had a seizure while I was at school, and my mom had to put him down. The next say at school out english teacher forced us to do a poem about how we feel. This was mine (the kittens name was Scout) :
          
          Scout.
          
          I am tired.
          I wonder if he's okay now.
          I hear his quiet crys.
          I see him everywhere.
          I want to have him back.
          I am tired.
          I pretend to be okay.
          I feel exhausted.
          I touch his soft fur.
          I worry that he's not okay now.
          I cry that he's gone.
          I am tired.
          I understand it was necessary.
          I say he was saying goodbye.
          I dream that he's healthy.
          I try to remind myself that it was needed.
          I hope he's able to walk now.
          I am tired.

I just convinced my brother he was hallucinating. 
          
          11 at night.
          I'm supposed to be asleep so am my lights are off and my room is dark. I was secretly on my phone when my brother appeared and said,"Is there a light?" I told him no and hid my phone, but he didn't believe me and came over to my bed to look.  The idiot didn't switch the light on, so I put my phone in between my legs and he lifted the blanket and couldn't find it. I told him he was hallucinating. He believed it and left 

*hugs*

Broke the streak tonight.
          
          Fuck my family.
          
          Fuck my 'bestfriend'.
          
          (Ifykyk)

Guys, I had a bad fall at my riding lesson yesterday and spent my afternoon in the ER. Turns out I fractured my right shoulder, and im right handed so so no updates for a while bc I'm in an upper arm cast and a sling

What do you think is a good amount of words for a chapter??
          
          
          Also what's your opinion on 'x male Oc' ff
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          *hint hint*
          
          
          

ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE-
          MY DUMB-ASS BRAIN CAUGHT FEELINGS FOR A GUY WHOS MOM IS BESTIES WITH MINE 
          AND OFC HES THAT ONE GUY THAT LIKE 25 GIRLS HAVE LIKED IN THE PAST 4 YEARS-
          
          But we had a play fight at school today, and I was squealing on the inside bc we were at our tuckshop and started whacking each other with our bags and play fighting 

Heard my mum talking shit about me to my brother again ✌️
          
          
          
          
          
          I'm getting so fucking sick of this lady
          
          
          
          
          When she realised I heard she acted all buddy buddy like she didn't say anything

I feel like ranting 
          
          My teacher emailed my parents 
          
          She stated the following 
          >I'm not doing well in class
          >I'm failing or just barely passing tests
          >I'm always tired
          >I'm not focused 
          
          Now I have to go to bed at 8, and it's pissing me off . I'm also pretty sure I have ADD, but my mom doesn't believe me .

Alright so I know this is stupid but everything that has been going on with my mom recently has made me remember one moment that happened just under 2 years ago but makes me wanna cry when I think about it  , this is it ..
          
          
          One evening before bed I was in my mom's room saying goodnight and she brought up a topic of something and holy shit it escalated quickly because all of a sudden she was accusing me of stealing when I know I didnt take shit from her . 
          I tried to walk away from the argument, but she followed . Now we were standing in my bedroom doorway, and the bathroom right next to it, which my dad was in . Shit kept escalating, and I was defending myself while she kept going with the accusations , this fight had been going on for about 30-40 minutes now and I'm in absolute tears , her and I screaming back and forth when she screamed and when I say screamed I mean screamed at me "ENOUGH!" 
          I was so fucking scared and angry that I couldn't stop shaking , like I was visibly shaking . She had never used that tone with me , she then yelled at me more while i just stood there shaking and crying . Then my dad stormed out the bathroom and told my mom he would deal with me , she screamed at me while she went back to her room.
          My dad then continued to yell at me for these reasons -
          >Not in bed yet (almost 1.5 hours past bedtime)
          >yelling at mom
          >speaking with attitude
          >misbehaving
          
          Basically shit like that , he them continued to lecture me while I'm still crying . After about another 30 minutes of yelling, it's now 23:30 . I went to bed crying that night and was absolutely exhausted the next day . Oh, and I was also forced to go apologise to my mom , like bitch tf ?
          
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          Yeah that moment was traumatic and I still feel like I can hear her scream in my head and every time I do I start to cry a little . There have been many more situations but never as bad as that .
          
          
          Alr bye ppl ! Thanks for listening to the rant