iamaheckingrat
this message may be offensive
I'm really sorry to those of you on here who actually look forward to me updating any of the stories on here.. I have to be honest here: I have no motivation to do anything what so ever. I don't wanna disappoint anyone of you. I am not used to showing any of my emotions or feelings, and I don't open up that much to anyone. I know that I won't be updating for a while, and I'm really sorry about this.. but I honestly can't take any more of this thing (?) that I am feeling all of a sudden. I usually don't do this type of thing, but I have to tell you guys so you aren't looking for an update that might never come. I know that I should "take care of myself" but being seriously honest here, I don't know how to anymore. I'm sorry that some of you guys are caring about me... (I know that sounds really bad) I know I've said sorry a lot in this, but I don't know what else to really say because I can't express anything "normally" anymore. I don't really know what else to write. I kinda hate that some of you guys are gonna read this far and think "Oh shit! What's going to happen to them? Are they gonna hurt their self? Is everything okay?" I just want you all to know that I really do care about each and everyone of you. This is literally the hardest thing I've ever had to type out in my life.
I love you all my kittens, and I hope that one day I'll come back and give you guys something really good, or something really bad. But until then.. Promise me one thing? Please don't worry about me or anything along those lines, because I hate it. I know I can't stop you from doing what you want.. but please? I just want to try and fix whatever the hell is wrong inside my head, and tell myself that some people care about me.
