Eunoia

My heart is heavy, and I can't put it down,
          So I hold it in my hands, It's rotten, and perhaps disgusting, 
          But it's mine, so I cradle it between my fingers,
          Gently, hoping it would stop bleeding, 
          But it keeps on bleeding and bleeding and bleeding,
          And the smell of decay engulfs me. 
          My heart is heavy, so I try to put it down, 
          Coat it in dust, bury it deep within the ground, 
          Somewhere it will stop hurting,
          But even the soil doesn't want it, 
          It spits it out without even chewing, as if the organ had grown poisonous, 
          As if the ground was worried the rot would spread, 
          And every living thing will be left decaying, and rancid, and dead. 
          My heart is heavy, so I give it you, 
          I remember it was filled with love, and light, and joy once, 
          But it's not anymore,
          Now it holds grief, and despair, and dread about everything that exists, and everything that doesn't, 
          So you tell me to keep it to myself, 
          But my heart is heavy and I can't put it down. 
          -Me 

Question: Is anyone up for an Ishman Os based on Saiyaara? Just the trope though, not angsty like the movie :]

If u like reading about indian cricket team, especially their brotherly bond then i have a couple of books i would really want u to try just one chapter u can decide if u want to keep reading 

"ands_oiwrite" my insta id if anyone wants to read some of the poems I write <3 

(Mujhe tasalli de de jo, 
          Vo shabd udhaara dhoond raha hai. 
          Ek sitara dhoond raha hai,
          Dil saiyaara dhoond raha hai
          
          Because I'm obsessed with saiyaara I kinda wanted to continue this, as an inspiration or something. It isn't that good, but I tried. Hindi/urdu writing isn't really my forte, it might be kinda cringe but still)
          
          Is tapti-jalti duniya mein,
          Dil ko de ek katra thandak,
          Baarish ki boondo sa chhu le,
          Vo ek ishara dhoond raha hai,
          Dil saiyaara dhoond raha hai.
          
          In tanha-tanha raato mein,
          Ambar mein jo chaand sa jalta,
          Lehro ke aks mein khudko kho-kar,
          Taaro mein yaara dhoond raha hai,
          Dil saiyaara dhoond raha hai.
          
          In dhundhli-dhundhli yaadon mein,
          In bebas aur nam aankhon mein,
          Zar-zar tujhko kho-kar phir bhi,
          Ishq bechara dhoond raha hai,
          Dil saiyaara dhoond raha hai.
          
          -Me

I think I'm done with this account, the updates are getting slower and slower, life is getting busier and messy, so maybe it's time I wrap this up. Most of my stories are already complete, the ones that are not, idk if I'll be able to update, I'm extremely sorry for that. Thank you for everything. Goodbye, guys, I'll miss you all. Keep smiling :)

Here is the sapphic romance book I was talking about, if anyone is interested in reading. Please lemme know what you think if you do read <3
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/397583141?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=iamprettywitch2-0
          
          

Wanna write an original character sapphic romance, full of angst and suffering so bad!! 

Theme is very pretty <3

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          even though I loved ishman but maybe no not maybe I definitely loved abhiynak more and more here even though they only had oneshot type of thing I absolutely loved it even more and I so badly want and wish to have more and more of it dude, like I binge read it last night and since then I am stuck with them. that randomly founding each other as their soulmates, spending time with each other at library and pretending to focus on their respective works but couldn't help stealing glances,Abhi taking mayu to his fav place,them spending quality time with each other there,and then that bye hug,Abhi getting Mayu's number and them talking hours and not getting enough of each other and even at party Abhi just finding his baby mayu even though he was surrounded by a lot of people he just wanted to be with his mayu and also I remember subhi mentioning abhi's stay at Mayu's place, man i can't help myself loving them even more and more and not me trying to make scenarios of them and now hope you get how badly I want their story on that soulmates story ahhh I just loved them sweetie (heart emoji)