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                i'm in a lot of pain right now, not physical but emotional. 
          
          i'm fucking in love and i hate it
          
          how do i get rid of this i can't move on, it's been over a year and all i've gotten from it is bullshit
          
          i can't do this anymore, i don't want to feel like this
          
          to think i went as far as to plan my future with her in mind, yet all i got is pain. 
          
          it hurts