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@larry29taekook hi. okay so i wrote out a whole 2000 character message for you and then wattpad glitched out and deleted it. here it goes again. 
            
            i can't log into my spoaty account anymore bc i don't know the password anymore. i made this account with my brother just now (pls ignore the goofy username). 
            
            it's been 5 years now, which is wild to me, and i want you to know that i've been looking at this page and seeing your messages periodically. i had no idea that you all would still be out there for me. i am so sorry for leaving. it was unforgivable for me to just go like that with no goodbyes or closure. 
            
            back then, little old dumb me had heard that wattpad was sold to the dark web or something, and i was scared about people online finding me in person, so i left abruptly. i had a really bad cold that day i left, and i remember disabling my other accounts and unpublishing my books that day. it was the best decision for my mental health at the time, but i really wish it wasn't. i was in a very bad place then, and you guys really helped me through it, but i think i just really needed some time to heal and be away from all of this. 
            
            i am so sorry. and i am so touched that you are still here for me. i know a lot of the random laughing squad isn't on here anymore. i had checked your page a little while back, and i thought you'd left, which is why i was so surprised to come back here and see your message from may. 
            
            thank you for being such a good part of my covid years. i've missed you and our conversations with gia so much. i missed how kind and understanding you are. i honestly don't know how much i'll even be on here now, but i just wanted to let you know i still think about you. and that you've helped me know that you're out there, still there for me, even when things got really rough over the years. your messages have helped. i hope you know.

back again after a year to just show i never forgot about you ❤️ take care and hopefully you're having a great 2025

@HedwigPrewett hi...i have been seeing these. it's me, spoaty, from a different account because i can't log back into my old one. 
            
            it's been two years since you posted this, so idk if you will see this now. in case you do, i wanted to say a few things.
            
            i left so abruptly for my mental health back then. i'm so, so, so sorry for not telling you i was. it was a very quick decision that i needed to make for myself, and it was not fair at all for me to do what i did.
            
            i can't believe you guys still kept posting on here years later. you have no idea how much it means. it ripped my heart to leave. you were like family to me. i've missed you all - you have no idea. i haven't moved on. 
            
            i don't know how much you're on here anymore, and how much i will be either. but i wanted to acknowledge how much i do care. i love you. i still think about our old times. i hope you are doing amazing. you were an incredible friend. <3

@HedwigPrewett oh that's amazing!! My hope is destroyed because none of my friends who disappeared for a year or longer came back. But yeah spoaty might ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

@larry29taekook A friend of mine just came back after disappearing for more than a year so it kinda gives me hope

@HedwigPrewett Yeah I visit it every time I come online. Maybe one day she will *crossing fingers* even though I don't think so