idk why, im sad but im not crying and im also a little bit mad, and it seems that i know you are not real but i believe that there is at least an Ian out there asking for help. i hope that the other Ian won’t make the same thing like you and please hang on for a second and believe that (even i hate to say this) everything will be alright. dont ever shut yourself, talk to someone, hotline, pray, scream on top of your lungs, do anything positive you want to do. again, just hang on. you dont know how others’ feelings if you give up. like u think they dont care about u, but put in ur mind that they have their own ways to show how much they care about u. this is all too much my heart is cracking