Big update. I broke up with my girlfriend like a few days after my last message. she’s going to college so rip that 1 year or so long relationship. I started sleeping with a blonde masc the next week, not to get over my ex, but to cope. Yeah well she started catching feelings so I told her I was ending it for her own good. And then she gaslighted me and told me I was leading her on and that I was a manipulative bastard even though I sent her multiple screenshots of me clearly saying “this is just sex snd nothing is going to happen there’s going to be no relationship this is just platonic naked friendship” and she still said I was leading her on so I wished her a good day and then went into the hallway of my algebra 2 classroom and started bawling my eyes out. Anyways it’s okay it I blocked her snd that’s over with I guess.