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I’m going to out of patient treatment for a week (: ISTG IF I CANT TRYOUT FOR VOLLEYBALL IM GOMNA DIE
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Nobody cares
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He’s not responding. Dammit. Ifst if he’s not okay you won’t be hearing from me.
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I’m trying so freaking hard not to lose him. I don’t want him to kill himself.
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I feel like my body is okay but Im dying at the same time
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I don’t eat or sleep anymore
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Just came from the hospital from having a severe panic attack YAY
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Tyy I am did go to school today so when I go on Monday ppl are gonna be loud but whatever it’s all good
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So I’m actually writing real book this time (last time I just needed something to rant in lol) Aaaand I just posted the first chapter so like if u wanna pls give it a try have a good night/day also if u try it, lemme know what u think :))))
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It’s probably petty but I’m kinda hurt that one of my favorite guy friends at my new school just ignored me today bc ppl ship us and there was a basketball game (we sat together last time and everyone was taking pictures and stuff so now that’s a thing). Idk if he’s gonna just move away next week and start talking to me again or if he’s just gonna ghost. But if he stays longer I don’t think he will talk to me tbh. It’s stupid but I rlly liked him (as a friend ofc but still).
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Update abt this lol. He has been texting me all day every day since he moved and when he sees me in the hall he runs to catch up lol. He also asked to sit next to me at all the games and stuff bc he said the other ppl he knows drives him ✨crazy✨. When he still lived like ten steps away from me we would go play volleyball and he would ask me to teach him and stuff. And volleyball tryouts are coming up (since at this new school the season is in the winter) and he said that he’s sure I’ll make it even tho like 50 girls from our grade are trying out. This rlly warmed my heart bc he’s so pessimistic most of the time lol. And he told me he would be at all the games to “embarrass” me if I make it. I don’t know if he likes me bc he’s been flirting and stuff but tbh idk if that’s just him being him. My moms and best friend are convinced he does but still. And honestly I’m so confused as to if I like him even if he does. That’s it, just felt like saying that.
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I’m not tryna flex but I gotta flex. Your girl just came from Disney world, broke her phone and now had the iPhone 13. I had android before and I’m not going back. That’s all I had to say. Goodbye my precious chicken tendies (bc they’re better then chicken nuggies).