Jake

My dad has a file on the family computer called TheGayAgenda.png and I love that. 

So my brother broke a chair and is acting like our parents are gonna kill him. So I said "I came out as trans and I'm still alive so I think you'll be fine" and he yelled at me that I'm not really trans. Same kid who months ago told me that he supports me being trans because he wants me to be happy.
          
          Also yeah you're probably gonna be yelled at but that's about it. Even our dad wouldn't get so mad over a chair that he'd beat the shit out of us. Our parents aren't very violent unless they're pissed off. 

i want cuddles 
          
          fewix gimme virtual cuddle 

So we have a problem. 
          
          I'm writing a story and one of the main characters lives in a toxic household while the other lives in a loving household. 
          
          But I don't know how to write a normal family and when I write the bad family I get really sad that I can relate and I feel like I'm exaggerating other people's lives when I write something that I don't experience. If I make the family too abusive I feel like I'm writing something I'll never understand and with the loving family I'm just sitting there not knowing if what I'm writing is what a normal family is actually like. The weird thing is I started doing this because I figured I'd ace the bad family and I could write my dream family in the same book. Now the story just makes me sad and confused. 

Bruh why the fuck am I attracted to people's eyes? Like I'll be on instagram and see a picture of Namjoon and just stare into his eyes and fall in love 

I just read an article on a Cosmo like site that was signs your boyfriend is gay. Some of my favorites are
          
          He cares about his appearance. You know, because straight guys are just slobs who don't take care of themselves. 
          
          He watches award shows. Yeah award shows are now feminine so guys who watch them are gay. 
          
          He doesn't use public bathrooms. You know, public bathrooms are disgusting. I try to avoid them. To be fair I'm trans but still.
          
          He cares about gay rights. No I am not joking. Thinking gays should be accepted makes you gay. You know, because straight people who think we deserve human rights are a myth. 
          
          He cares about fashion. I don't think she understands that being gender nonconforming doesn't make you gay.
          
          And last, he's homophobic. I mean maybe but that's more of a sign you should leave him because I would want to date someone who doesn't hate strangers for dumb reasons like that. 

We're learning about asexual reproduction in science and a boy asked if that was two men.

I wanna write a fanfic that's like Ouran High School Host Club but with a trans guy instead of a crossdresser only because there are characters in that anime that I'm pretty sure are terfs and I wanna make them suffer. 
          
          
          Also because Haruhi is literal transition goals but that's unrelated 

Frickity frackity I don't have any valentines to give anyone. 

In today's episode of life advice from Kai 
          
          Don't fucking wrap ace bandages around your chest. It hurts.