yourbean

Hey guys,
          
            I really don’t know if anyone will see this it this point but I thought I’ve been thinking about saying something for a while now and I feel you all deserve an explanation.
            These past few years have been crazy. I know my last update was really deep and I was in a such a low place. I was trying so hard to reply to people and be active and work on CWBIL, but everything going on got the better of me and I’m so sorry for that. It’s no excuse and I’m so sorry. I truly appreciate everyone who reached out to me and tried to check on me. I’m reading all these messages now that I never saw and am so disappointed in myself for not being more grateful for all of you. I’m so sorry.
             Since the pandemic started in the beginning of 2020 I finally got to be at home, away from school, and thought things would get better. But being home alone everyday just made me fall deeper and deeper into my anxiety. And with some health problems I ended up having, I really hit rock bottom. 
              But I decided for myself to turn things around in the beginning of 2021. I’m in my second year of college and am working hard. I’m taking better care of myself and pushing myself to not fall into old patterns, which can be really hard at times. And sometimes I have fallen, but I have continued to pick myself back up. I allowed myself to feel through my anxiety, sadness, and anger but not let it overtake me.  I decided I’m not going to allow myself to view myself as a victim to the things I’ve endured and be stuck in sadness. Instead of being stuck in the past I’m looking towards the future and enjoying the present.
             And I hope all of you are doing well. And if you’re not, remember you’re not alone in your struggles. Please remember you are amazing, and even if things are hard now you have a long life ahead of you for things to change, and they will. I can promise things will get better.
          
          *continued below*

If you like my new continuing book : Funny Little Love, be sure to vote for it and recommend it to others by adding it to your reading list, so that one day if I get a lot of followers I can say you were my first fans...
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/271129402

just gonna check again, where’d you go?

hey babes? Are you okay??

~Hey loves,
          
          I wanted to write this quick psa to say that I want this account to be used for something more. So if anyone is going through stuff and just wants to express themselves on how they feel, or get feedback and opinions and help from people, please use this message board as a way to do that. My DMs will always be open if you want to privately talk, but I also want to give the opportunity for people to connect with others on what they’re going through if they feel comfortable.
          
          Thank you, my hoes without a cause 
          
          Haven’t heard that one in a while LMAO
          
          Love you~
          
          ~your bean, kam

Please read my authors note loves. I love you.

I know it's terribly late, but congrats on coming 1st in the Teen Fiction Awards Short Story Comp 2! :)

I like your book "can we be in love" keep up the good work on it :)

I like your book "can we be in love" keep up the good work on it :)

To all saying that queen should update CWBIL (All the fuckin' time):
          
          Dont pressure the queen ffs! 
          She has a life too you know?! And it all shouldn't be spent in writing books.