idklifebro

yall ever look back and relizes how cringe u were also im back

Icythotbitch

Yess bro I be getting second hand embarrassment from myself sometimes 
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idklifebro

i got diagnosed with bpd

NocturnalWolf18

@idklifebro I'm sure you'll be alright^^
            My mother has bpd, but she's doing just fine. I know you're dealing with a lot, but I also know you're strong, and you can make it through. 
            I wish you luck.
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idklifebro

@BlitzyWolf thank you so much this means the world to me
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idklifebro

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yk when ur parents fuck up the one thing u absolutly love in the world and your only life line and u wanna just kill them yeah thats how ive been feeling lately,. i feel broken i miss them and want them back. i want them. and it hurts

idklifebro

@BlitzyWolf i apreaciate this so much. im honestly honoured u r one of my favourite writers and i will definetly be reading more of your books. istg i apprecate u so much im honoured
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BlitzyWolf

@idklifebro 
            i'm happy to help, and i'm here if you ever it. i'm so glad to know you're still here, and if anything, i'm the one who owes you, so thank *you,* because i still remember your comments and how much they meant to me. you've left a lasting impact on more people than you'd think, even if quite some time has passed, and even if you don't remember. the people you yourself have made the days of won't forget that, and just as i am, i'm sure they're beyond grateful for it.
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idklifebro

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kinda wanna attempt again. im done. im fed up. ive started throwing up my food again,. i cant deal w shit. im not clean anymore. idk what to do. idk why im saying shit here tbh ig its cuz no one will like idk care ig. im jus no one yk but sucks to suck

tzuyusgfreal

@idklifebro please don't ok? i'm msging you about this (ily <3)
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idklifebro

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          I tried to kms today. it didnt work. i wish it did. i cant deal w my parents istg im so mad rn

idklifebro

@NocturnalWolf18 omg ill say it millions of times i love you. i love ur words. ok and if u wanna talk im here. im happy your mum is looking at herself so she can make ur life better hopefully. and i wont be dying anytime soon whether i want to or not love u lots
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NocturnalWolf18

@idklifebro I realize I haven't been messaging as often, but I will do my best to get back on track and support you more.
            
            I love you my beloved, please: Don't die.
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NocturnalWolf18

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@idklifebro  
            ...Respectfully, thank fuck you didn't. I appreciate you not dragging us down with threats and warnings of suicide, but to be honest, I'd prefer if this didn't have the opportunity to occur at all. 
            I love you g*d d@mn it. I have dealt with death, I seen those I love die right in front of my face and I have had my own battles with death. I don't want to loose you to force beyond either of our control.
            Tbh, my thinking hasn't been the best either. There have been voices reminding me just how many weapons we have around the house as I stare into my father's eyes. I vent to myself through making up circumstances where they are doused in red, because that's all I can do to cope.
            I get it, opening up and remaining in such close proximity to people that make you wanna sprint for the knife, is f"cking agony. My ambitions are not the same as yours, but they revolve around the same center points:
            1) Our parents are f"cking up and not realizing/admitting to it.
            2) We love each other but we hate ourselves more.
            3) And we're holding back by bottling our emotions.
            Just tried opening up to my mom yesterday and confronted to her that," Hey, every time I come to you just wanting to vent about common day sh!t, you either recommend therapy, suicide or shut me down and say everything I'm doing wrong that's lead to this point before I can even finish." And it worked. She took a step back for once, and tried looking at herself and what she's done compared what I can control. 
            I realize this likely doesn't work for everybody, but pointing out that there's a possibility it could is not useless. Let's face it, people can change whether they want to or not, and sometimes a little bit of a push in the right direction can send them flying.
            I don't know your (bat-sh!t crazy) parents or the rest of your family, but I do know you. You are f"cking amazing and it's blatantly obvious that those who try to control you instead of cherish you, have no f"cking sense.
            I love you snow girl.
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idklifebro

tbh i hate my life. i hate my friends im stuck. im in so many problems i was 2 years clean but now its all coming back. everythingi tried to put to the side is coming back. my insecurites everything. i just hate myself.

tzuyusgfreal

@idklifebro u ok? talk to me if u need something <3
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idklifebro

OMG IVE BEEN ON WATTPAD FOR 2 YEARS

idklifebro

@Icythotbitch LMAOO WOW OK I SEE U
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Icythotbitch

@idklifebro LMFAO BYE ITS BEEN 3 FOR ME
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idklifebro

who do yall want to win the world cup?
          
          for me England CAUSE ITS COMING HOME GUYS IK IT IS FINNALLY IT WILL AFTER YEARS IT WILL COME HOME
          
          
          
          
          or japan

idklifebro

@ThatOneWeirdBeing bro id dint know it was ur birthday happy late bday
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ThatOneWeirdBeing

@T0D0r0k1_S1mP Yes ikr! My feet are bleeding from numbness
            
            You should be :D
            
            Funky is one of my fav wordss
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idklifebro

bro istg i cant do life anymore i frikin hate it. my firend constantly ditches me for my sister and i cant sya nothing. almost evryone of my firends left me for nothing. like i was just a ohase and my family is just terrible. and my sister is so much better than me i wish i could just be her.

ThatOneWeirdBeing

@idklifebro Aw thx! Same with you. Ur super cool :D
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ThatOneWeirdBeing

Are you inside my house or something cause my living room door just opened when I was on your member board and my younger sister was like "Todoroki!" (I like to roleplay him/you a lot)