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is it jst me or idc abt whether the song is hated or not, as long as i vibe w it, as long as it come terms w me? lol
          
          what leads to this is rlly me in general in music but what rlly indeed lead me to wrote this is the new released album of TS, which is TLOAS. the hate and love to the album is split, tho idrc abt that one. i vibe w it, i like it, i’ll play and listen to it. ;P

yk what, recently, i’m feeling sympathetic to my mom. like, everyday nagtatrabaho siya, even weekends!! her work is def not easy dahil lagi na lang sitang inuutusan do’n, tapos her pay is barely even acceptable for the things she’s done and doing for them. fuck them, actually. masyado kasing masipag si mama e’, sinasabi ko na nga, kami ng kapatid ko na, ’wag niya masyadong pakasipagan kasi hindi naman tataas sahod niya do’n kasi fixed pay pero ayaw niya, ba’t niya raw gagawin ’yun, tapos ang dami niya na ring sinabi. naaawa talaga ako sa mama ko, sobrang sipag niya, even at home, she do all workarounds and chores, lalo na dahil lazy kami, what an excuse. ang payat niya na nga e.
          
           lagi na lang gawain niya sa araw-araw is gigising ng maaga, mag-asikaso sa bahay at sa’min, pumasok (hanggang hapon na pagabi na ’yun), umuwi (minsan may dala siya, which sometimes makes her happy. makes me happy too), kumain, sometimes, she do her vice of playing cards, tumulog, and repeat. gano’n na lang ng gano’n.
          
          ang dami niya pang isipin:((. babawi talaga ako, ma. wait mo lang ako makapagtapos, makuha license ko, and makapagtrabaho, i’ll give u what u didn’t experience in the past. :(( sending hugs, ma. i live u, despite us arguing some of the times ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ

sixth day of having chickenpox and i can say that yesterday’s worser than today cs ngayon papunta na sila sa stage ng pag-scabs, which i’m rlly wanna come sooner^^

ihhh, nagkaroon na’ko ng chickenpox, which I OBVI DISLIKED AND HATE!! like, nakakadiri, and it’s actually uncomfortable!! tapos ang dami ko ngayong 4th day ko ☹️☹️. i srsly cried and still will hanggang hindi mawala-wala ’to. ang pangit talaga, ang pangit ng pakiramdam ko, ang pangit ng tingin ko sa sarili ko. i’m jst glad i’m comfy w my fam that we’re vocal abt it, ang caring pa ni mama tho, oo lang siya ng oo kanina, which is annoying. side note, she’s still caring despite being annoying like that and yes, i still love her. ofc, my sibling, too! annoying but bearable. anyway, i jay hope this to be gone ASAP. i rlly can’t w this shi. tapos hindi pa’ko makapasok tom dahil sobrang obvious, ang dami ko sa face!! also in my front body, my chest!!

nag-away na naman kami once in a while ni mama lmao. 
          
          pero mali ko naman talaga kasi i‘m supposed to fill my own water para pang paligo. wala na sanang problema, but the thing is...there’s people—three at that minus lola—where i fetches water!! e’ ilap ako sa tao!! (՞߹ - ߹՞)
          
          anyare, naka-isang igib lang ako tapos nagamit ko ’yung isang igib ni mama. e’ gets ko naman siya na yes, our mom’s already tired from work all day long tapos kami na may pagkatamad na mga anak niya (hehe), hindi manlang gumagawa ng house chores like washing the dishes, maglaba and dryer (which i should do at most!!), and fetch water. guilty naman ako pero it’s jst i’m soo lazy that i rlly so reluctant to help her.
          
          also kasi the more u make it obvious that u want me to do this, the more i’ll rebel against it and not do it. i’ve the thing na i don’t want to satisfy someone nor prove that they can make me follow them and be obedient w them. ayoko talaga, sobrang reluctant ko jan, pilitan na lang ginagawa ko sa sarili ko minsan kasi ik it’s not good to have either.
          
          back to the story, ayun na nga, ginamit ko na. swepre natural to express na magagalit ka kapag may gumamit ng gamit or anything na pinaghirapan mo, so nagalit nga si mama. e’ ayoko nga kasi talagang ayaw ko na may tao sa paligid ko, sobrang conscious ko when i’m around people.
          
          so, ’yun. okay naman na ulit kami nito bukas, typical. HAHAHA

hmm...how would i start ba? well, long sentence short, gawin ko ’tong ranting app. it doesn’t matter to me naman if may makabasa or wala, if i rlly want the privacy then i should’ve installed a diary or write it in a journal, hindi ’yung i’m here, ’di ba? like, at least this can make someone feel or know that, “hey, you, yes YOU. ur not alone, i’m here too. think of me as for someone who vents and rants out feelings, not only for me but for u too!“ two birds in one stone na HAHAHA
          
          

Thanks for adding Intercepted to your reading list :) I hope you like it!