Story from june 5 (yapping 2)
Ok so this story is abt me getting the fear of being forgotten and LOST! FUN!
Okay so this started where the whole 6th grade went to the ZOO (to see how good we are w groups and responsibility), so, we were in apart groups (chosen by teachers so i was not w my fav friends that i love sm), i was the only responsible one, but my whole group wasn't PAYING ATTENTION TO ME WHEN I TRIED TO HELP, UNLEESS IF I SAID SOMETHING DUMB OR USELESS. So, we continued working, being forgotten/ignored almost all the time, and around the 12 pm we went to eat lunch to later go back to work (yk, we need energy) and i was so upset i could barely eat well. I told my friends about me but they tried to comfort me, BUT I'M THE FUNNY FRIEND AND I LIE THROUGH MY TEETH AND I GO ALL "Ah no no thank you! I'll be fiiine!", we finished eating, went back to the group, we didn't even started on our 4th work project and they go all "HEY! LETS HANG OUT W THE OTHERS SO WE FINISH EACH OTHERS WORK PROJECTS!" and i decided to keep my mouth shut because, for what if they wouldn't listen? Haha! They even asked me "you can go w ur friends, why dont u go?" not sure if they wanted me there, but since i'm too scared to do stuff without permission, i declined, we did non-working stuff, i gave up, just exploring around the ZOO, and after a little while, i have felt A REALLY STRONG ANXIOUS FEELING, I HAVE SENSED THAT IT WAS THE TIME TO GO TO THE TEACHERS, BUT NOOOO THEY JUST HAD TO IGNORE ME! Suddenly... "[school] pls go to the exit." WE STARTED SEARCHING FOR THE EXIT IN PANIC, well i was in the panic, I LOOKED AWAY FROM MY GROUP FOR 3 SECONDS, GUESS WHAT? My group left me, all alone, I STARTED PANICKING SO HARD I NEARLY CRIED AND GOT A PANIC ATTACK (SERIOUSLY.) EVEN THE EMPLOYEE TRIED TO TELL EM TO CALM DOWN. "Did you find the exit?" Yes, my group was there, apologizing, yes, i had to forgive them. But they still gave me those fears, my friends were worried, everyone was.
K thas all!