ievidovebaird

happy birthday katniss everdeen... so random but I'm currently obsessed with the series so haha

sunrise on the reaping still guts me.
          I'm never getting over this.

https://www.wattpad.com/1537452652-all%27s-fair-in-love-and-poetry-two-saboteurs
          
          short one, but I love it :) thank you for the support!

HAPPY EASTER <33

I finally had the energy to write and post a poem after almost a month... please check it out <3
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/1534419439-all%27s-fair-in-love-and-poetry-time-will-be-the

idk why sometimes I love people and really want to help them, other times I just think that people are annoying. yeah I know I'm the problem here, but does anyone relate? 
          
          btw happy good friday

okay I js realised how much I hate myself. actually no that wasn't the right way to word it- I just realised how easy I am to hate, cz I'm too awful to even hate myself for the way I think. every day when I see people, I overanalyse them like crazy, I think they're attention-seeking, I think they're not truly struggling. on the rare occasion I believe they're mature and need help, but otherwise not really. 
          
          it sucks to admit this, cz that's the kind of person I've always hated, kind of person I know I don't want to be and yet here I am
          
          I'm just posting this, maybe bc I'm attention-seeking, maybe bc I wanted to talk about it. I guess with my head, and my heart trapped under layers and layers of lies and excuses, I can't even tell myself. 
          
          and for all the kind souls who read this to the end and is figuring out what to write to comfort me, thank you, but honestly, it's probably not going to work. it's no point because I've given up on myself already. now I just live on for the sake of not dying. sadly, me being dead would hurt those around me more than I would alive. and I'm not suicidal, not for now at least, but I know I should be

rereading sunrise on the reaping has made me realise I'm desperate for happy haymitch × lenore dove fanfics so if you know any please suggest TYSMM

How many times 'til you let go?
          Flake on your plans to help me cope And convince me we won't be here
          Again, and again, and again, and again (Oh, no)
          How many nights do I have left
          'Til you decide that l'm a mess?
          I'm the problem, always at your expense I'd hate to be my friend
          YOU HAVE JUST MICO'D
          SEND THIS TO 10 FRIENDS TO SPREAD MICO
          Started by the one the only @NoOtThHoOmMAaNn

is it just me who reads all the announcements I get, no matter how much i don't want to read them... like.i don't really care that much about these people on the Internet that I follow bc they seem nice, but at the same time, I'm scared that they'll decide to kts and I won't know, so I read all of the notifs anyway.