ifoundmyb4lls

@stillwithfifi hey mommy 

@ifoundmyb4lls but I’m right here ;)

@stillwithfifi i miss you, you know? ;( 

@stillwithfifi no way, really? like a big move? or still in the same country?

@stillwithfifi actively holding on. 
            
            but the move has been good. i managed to move all of my things by myself and in one day. i was so exhausted by the end of it, but one of my friends ended up coming to help me set up my room. the place is really nice and the amenities are pretty cool as well. there’s a volleyball court, gaming room, 2 different pools and a basketball/tennis court, and a free gym too. i haven’t met any of my roommates yet, as it’s “school holidays” right now, so i’m assuming they’re on vacation. a new roommate moves in on the 12th, which is exciting and makes me feel a lot better, because i won’t be the only new person. i really like how my room is set up, it’s exactly how i wanted it to look. i have my own bathroom as well. it’s been weird living by myself for the past few days… very freeing though. i’m enjoying having my own space. 
            
            but thank you for that, bebe. i really appreciate it. i’ve been struggling a lot, so your words mean a whole lot to me. i’m excited to see what this new chapter will bring, but i am nervous too. not knowing how everything will unfold scares me. i’ll make sure to take baby steps, and i’ll continue to remind myself that what i’ve done so far is super cool in itself. 
            
            i should also mention too, i got into my psychology course. got the offer the other day, and i start in two weeks. 

We’re living in a bit of a similar timeline cause I’m moving places too, might be done by the 11th. 

@stillwithfifi he wasn’t, i believe he was 21 or 22 and i read it on ao3. i don’t use wattpad anymore besides to talk to you. 
            
            no, like listen, it’s such a good story. like so so so so so so so so so good. once it’s finished, i’m going to print it out and make it a physical book i can read.

@ifoundmyb4lls that’s quite interesting.  I hope that boy wasn’t underage when he got into a ‘relationship’ with the professor. Where did you read it? I thought it’s a published book but if you’re saying it isn’t completed then I’m guessing it’s on Wattpad or something similar?
            
            Explains the plot- age gap, predator professor. Interesting to say the least.
            
            Took me about a min to read so it wasn’t long for me.

i apologise for how long that was.

@stillwithfifi no.
            
            i swear i don’t remember. i was an extremely weird child, so i couldn’t tell you what i was thinking. i’m a little embarrassed though, my gosh. and well, yes. i mean, i learnt that at a young age ;( but i’m alot more cautious about almost everything. thanks to my anxiety :p
            
            shhhh. 
            
            :p
            
            okay ‪‪‪‪<3 

@ifoundmyb4lls  it does, sooner or later.
            
            You definitely remember. You used to be crazy about him. 
            Improved how? You don’t get into random vans when they bribe you with chocolate anymore?
            
            Then you still can’t make right decisions for yourself.
            
            ;)
            
            I’m not gonna delete it.

@stillwithfifi okay :))

@stillwithfifi oh no, do i come on too strong? :/ 
            
            excuuuuuuse me, i’m 20 in less than two months. that’s very adult. 
            
            uhhhh, nothing? i did not say anything :D i really don’t think they’re gonna try and kill me, bebe. i’m sure i’ll be fine.
            
            they definitely do. and i DO. but i don’t recall you ever telling me that you wear them. but i’m sure if you did, i probably said some really out of pocket things. 
            
            hush, no i don’t. 

@ifoundmyb4lls I’ll be honest, you scare me sometimes.
            
            Definitely not what I meant. A 19 year old is a kid to me.
            
            You called me what now? 
            Cause then you’re gonna end up getting killed and we don’t want that. Scary, isn’t it?
            
            Nerdy yes, but people love nerds nowadays. And I thought you said you remembered things?  
            You got some weird taste buds kid.

@stillwithfifi i know you did, but i know there had been reasons for it. no, i didn’t turn into a monk hahaha. i’m just like super attached and loyal, and i miss you too much. 
            
            you mean adults being sarcastic to adults? hehe
            
            yes mommy, i will keep a weapon in arms reach. don’t get along too well? why’s that, huh?
            
            i dunno, i do look extremely nerdy with them on. i didn’t know you wore glasses though. yummy.

@stillwithfifi part three!!
            
            surprisingly yes. last time was highschool, and that burnt me out so badly the thought of studying made me want to die! ‪‪<3 but, i’ve been out of school for over a year now, and i miss learning. but yeah, definitely nerdy. i even have the glasses to go along with it. 
            
            i really beg to differ. it had gotten real bad, bebe. omg you’re a therapist now? but i honestly will talk to someone eventually, i definitely need it. anyway, i do agree, i absolutely should have. but i was too scared of being abandoned that i put up with it. ironic considering i ended up being abandoned anyway. and, i have no clue. don’t want to know anyway. i know he’s got a new girlfriend, which is insane considering circumstances. i really can’t talk about them here, so i’ll tell you another time. 
            
            lol no, i lied. i’ve subconsciously known for a very very very long time. you helped me come to terms with it though. 
            
            you’re welcome :) missed you. 

@stillwithfifi part two!!
            
            of course, and i’m pretty confident that i’ll love what i do. i’ve wanted to be a psychologist for years now. and wow, he really didn’t know what he was talking about. i dunno, i feel like it’s hard for people to tell you what you should want to be. like, they can offer advice, but at the end of the day, you know yourself better than anyone. i did stop wanting to be a psychologist for a while, because of things that happened with my dad, trauma, etc. since i thought it would be too much for me to handle, but i’m at a good point in my life right now where i’m confident that i’ll be able to do some good for people who need it. 
            
            i’m doing shares houses, i’m not sure if there’s a difference? as of right now, it’s my best option until i can earn more money. but, as soon as my sister can move, her and i will absolutely be living together. i cannot wait! 
            
            you. what’re you gonna do about it? 
            
            what am i sugarcoating? 

@stillwithfifi omg hi bebe!! 
            
            i know it’s not healthy, i just love reading :( but, i do have some exciting news, i start university on monday and i’ll be moving into the share houses soon as well! so ill have to prioritise my sleep anyway! and yes i know it doesn’t, but i definitely feel like a grandma when i do.
            
            maybe. i could probably be a lot worse. 
            
            oh absolutely, you bring it out of me. 
            
            hey :( don’t be mean. 
            
            YES! you need to stop saying you’re proud, i like it too much. yes, positive things like going to clubs. i’ve only ever been once, and it was an experience for sure. 
            
            it won’t for me, i don’t know why. like, i can write heaps but once i go to send it, it says the message is too long.