Be the person you would wanna be with. If you start to do something out of anger, find the strength within you to think about how it would feel to be the other person. Tell her the truth. Tell her everything that is going on in your head. If she can't forgive you, you will have to move on. If you believe you have a problem, you will need to get help. And asking for help is not a weak move. It will be hard because its the smartest, best thing you could do if you cant stop yourself from hurting the one you love. There are many wonderful girls out there. This was raw and deep. It's fantastic that you know what you're doing wrong. Not everyone does realize. Maybe try writing down all the things you want to change about yourself and all the things you like. She should feel safe with you. If she can't do that, love will be near to impossible for you. Be honest. And remember: Only the weak are cruel. Gentleness only comes from the strong because its harder to control your raging emotions. If you truly love her, then you will do whats best for her, no matter what. Stay strong. I believe you can do it. Maybe talk to someone you trust(that isn't her) about what's going on in your head. Know that everyone makes mistakes and all mistakes can be forgiven but not forgotten. She may not give you another chance and maybe she shouldn't. At least, no while you are like this. If you feel you are losing control, stop and take deep breaths and if that doesn't work, leave. Leave before it gets worse. Call her when you're angry. And never forget that actions have consequences. Sorry for the long note, I know you hate reading ;)
