@ikeu_nim
My body is hurting me so bad in the legs and arms. What the fuck is going on.
How can I get your socials?? Are active now?
R.I.P Yue.
Bruh.
The more I learn, the less I want to continue.
I'm so pissed off.
I think I'm actually going insane, I'm unable to do anything, I have so much difficulties to eat and the stress is killing me, I genuinely can't breath normally and I'm constantly tired the whole day, I can't bring myself to call or play or anything. I think it's because of my very last exam. I've done 4/5 exams, there is one left, an oral and I've learned that the jury in my room is an english speciality teacher which means I have extremely high chances to pass on my LLCER english x SES subject which is the one I know the less. I feel so submerged and I don't want to fail I just can't. It's making me sick, I need to lock the fuck in and work for it so much, maybe too much if needed. I don't know why I'm putting myself in such states (I know, spoiler, it's called trauma) but oh my god, my oral is on the 22 june, I drive tomorrow and maybe Sunday I don't even freaking know, I hate driving and it's adding stress on me I'm so stressed for nothing and it's not even a "little" stress no it had to be driving me crazy and insane and any words under that lexical field.
I'm so sorry but I genuinely just caaannn't. I need to work and to study it a lot, if I don't I'm going insane. It's that simple. And I honestly don't give a fuck if not a si goe person understands me, I just needed to lay it out because I've been ghosting literally everyone. My bad.
Anyway bye I'm gonna disappear for god knows how long. I just need my space to let my thoughts be in the subject at 100%. I need to master it. That's all.
@ikeu_nim YESSS YOU CAN DO IT!!! i did my last exam today and i was stressing for nothing bc it was really easy. YOU GOT THISSSSS!!!
@enhastan4life @znlvrn THANKS GIRLS/GUYS. I've been motivating myself so bad today TT cheering me up so I can get my shit together and kill this exam. WE GOT THIS GUYS WOOOOJOOOOJFDJBSJS (that is me going crazy, don't mind me) gonna let you guys know how it went tomorrow if I don't forget (I'm dory).
@ikeu_nim I also have soo much stress that I can sleep for around 5 hours even tho I'm really sleep deprived before waking up. whenever I wake up the first thing I think about is 'i need to study'. the amount of stress exams give me is unhealthy. I hope we both get better as soon as possible because i'm tired of this sick, stressed feeling.
You bamboo and I string,
we scaffolding table.
Anyway, IZNA dropped their new album SET THE TEMPO and oh my god. I'm in LOVE with Metronome (title track) and R.I.P AND YES, IT'S R.I.P THE PROMOTED B-SIDE I'M SO HAPPY.
The songs are sssooooo summer coded aaaaahahahrbdjsbsjheudbd.
Talking abt summer, my mom forced me to make a driving schedule so she was sure I would do 3000 km by the end of the year to have my driver license and put me in the university I want. Send help. I hate driving so much but it's okay in.. Let's say 5-6 months I'm supposed to be free with it. NORMALLY TT. AND, in 2 months and half I'm gonna FINALLY have my own place to live in GRRRRR.
I want to yap today since I don't have anyone to yap to ig.
I FINALLY finished working on my SES, did that ALL DAY it was genuinely tiring but definitely worth it. I will still work on it at home this week, since my exam is the 16 june (as well as my birthday hehe). OH ALSO! I learned that my friend with whom I worked the SES with today, IS IN MY CAMPUS IN UNIVERSITY LET'S GOOOOOOO, he goes in Economics tho and I go in literature. I will SO steal his classes LMFAO. Even just go in if I have time and he is in an auditorium.
Tu es bien payée si tu as l’agrégation sinon non les salaires ne sont pas si fous. Et l’agrégation c dur à avoir. 2500 c pas tant en soit (fin c bien mais vu comment la vie est chère) je trouve que prof ça devrait être mieux payé. Je dis ça, je veux faire prof mdr
I talked with some people and searched things only and, in France at least, bro. Being a teacher is SSOOOOO good actually for the salary wtf? If I get a special diploma, I don't know how it's called in english but in french is called the "agrégation", I get paid, first of all, with or without this special diploma, more than 2000 euros my FIRST YEAR being a titular. 2130 euros net pay. AND WITH 5 YEARS IN THE SCHOOL + the agrégation, you get 2500 euros net pey. THIS IS SO GOOD WHAT THE FUCK? genuinely this is insane.
It's sure that a teacher salary should be higer, should be considered as the highest in the social class hierarchy and be actually paid for the real hours done and not the 15-18. This is stupid. Everyone know teachers work way more than 18 hours a week.
Apart from that, my SES teacher gave me like, 10 or more books (social and economical) I'M SO HAPPY. I swear, I wish this class would have been following me everywhere in my studies because it's genuinely SO INTERESTING LIKE AAAAAAHHHH.
anygays that's all I wanted to yap about. Bye bye.
idk wtf to read in here anymore.
The worst thing may be that I still receive the notifications of books I can't even access anymore.
DID MY LLCER ORAL EXAM AND LITERALLY KILLED IT I'M SO DAMN HAPPY HSHDJSNSJSBJSBSS.
Finally able to play my favorite games on PC, I'M IN HEAVEN.