illio8

I’m so scared of being like him, my skin itches in fear, anger and sadness most of all. 

yall ever do something so out of character that you dont know how to act anymore? because im dealing with that now, and i dont know what to do, how can i be so immature at my almost grown age? how can i be so unsure about who i am or what im going to do in my life? why do i struggle with my identity so much?

damn, i really got that fanfic writer lifestyle, i get arrested, my brother gets arrested, my brother gets shot in the head, and is in the hospital actively, and yet all i can think about is, fuck, how am i supposed to finish the fanfic i started writing yesterday when now i have all this going on?

YAP SESH BC I HAVE NO ONE TO YAP TO
          
          whats goodie in the hoodie my gangies? okay so i havent used wattpad in a MINN but i used it like a 11 days ago, n checked up on my fanfics (not posted/published) n deleted n edited some of em n istg i jinxed myself w that fanfic author luck n got myself locked up the next day, i got freed ofc bc im the typa bitch who writes fanfics so like obvi i have no priors
          
          anyways i guess the message im tryna send is dont shoot bitches even if theyre coming at you w a knife especially in california bc they dgaf if youre in your own backyard, you’ll still get locked up n get charged w a felony assault w a deadly weapon 
          
          so stay safe yall :3

fainting is so silly, like wym i js woke up on the floor with a big red bump on my forehead, a bit of blood from my head dripping n a possible concussion? is ts finna stop me from taking a nap tho? fucks no, ima sleep even if that means i go brain dead

why do i have guilt over people worrying about me

i love using my status board thingy as a personal diary its so silly 

guys im back in my mommy issues arc havent been like this since elementary its kinda crazy 

I think im actually in love with him

the temptation to take all my antidepressants n chug a tall can or two is crazy