ilymyslf

let's begin again!!!
          	
          	ayook kitaa mulai lagi susun dan bangun mimpinya!!!
          	
          	bissmillah

ilymyslf

qia, terima kasih yaa...
          
          meskipun banyak suara kamu yang tidak di dengar, meskipun keadaanmu terus menuntut untuk memahami tanpa kamu merasa di mengerti, semoga kamu tumbuh menjadi pribadi yang lebih dewasa dalam menyikapi sesuatu.
          
          qia, jika ada perlakuan orang lain yang kurang berkenan di hati kamu, maka jangan lakukan itu pada orang lain yaa...
          
          maafkan mereka yang sudah menyakiti kamu tanpa mereka sadari, berdamailah... jangan bawa hingga waktu yang lama karna itu bisa menyesakkan kamu, maafkan...
          
          hati kamu luas qia...

ilymyslf

ngga nyangka bisa jadi setenang ini, perempuan yang dulunya dikit-dikit ngambek, ngga terbuka soal perasaan, dkk sekarang udah bisa handle masalah yg cukup lumayan nguras energi yahh
          
          ketika mau ngambek ngga jelas dan lari dari ketidaknyamanan, she choose buat hadepin itu, validasi perasaan dirinya, dan bisa bertahan sampai titik ini
          
          memang belum sepenuhnya secure dan punya EQ yang baik, tapi setidaknya di waktu yg cukup menantang kemarin bisa tetap waras dan tenang ketika suasana sedang tidak baik-baik saja
          
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ilymyslf

"He's one of the people who made you "fly" again?"
          
          "Yes."
          
          I have a friend, we met early 2021, before I graduated from high school, before I knew that my life path was not as well as I imagined.
          
          He comes from a different country, far away, more than 7,300 km from here in Indonesia, so many different things between us. Who would have thought that he would be one of the people who accompanied me during my gap year for two years until I could go to college now.
          
          When I was insecure about my gap year decision, he had a different perspective, he said that it was a cool decision, I could make a brave decision.
          
          Even when I looked down on and had no confidence in the future, he gave me confidence that he believed in me, which I even doubted myself.
          
          When I thought my wings were really broken, you made me believe in your own way that all of this would pass, from that distance you gave me that confidence and enthusiasm, without me knowing that far away you also needed the same thing...
          
          I think, in the years to come we will always be together. But, the universe had other plans...
          
          When I started to gain that confidence, when I was ready to fly higher, you said we should to stop here. 
          
          We're done, 
          
          And, you really disappeared... 
          
          ---
          
          Even so, I don't want to forget his kindness, I don't know if he was sent by the universe because he knew he could help me when I was in a difficult time? 
          
          Why when I started to make peace with things in the past, did you also disappear? 
          
          ---
          
          Hopefully there, you can also make peace with the things that hurt you, hopefully you can also recover and live happier like when you laughed freely when you were little. 
          
          Thank you for filling my days from a distance, so glad to meet you, my almost.