ilyvhackerr

boom. part one posted <3 sus it out if you wouldn’t mind x love you all and goodnight haha

ilyvhackerr

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if i could take it all back. i would. 
          
          you don’t realise how many times i had told myself not to go back to you, i ignored it but, i should’ve listened. 
          
          you ruined everything. you hurt me more than you think. 
          
          sometimes i think that maybe it was love. and that maybe that it was right person wrong time, all four times. but you never loved me. you never cared about me. 
          
          i hope one day you get hurt the exact same way you hurt me and feel that, emptiness. staying up all night crying and wishing you were no longer alive. wishing that the pain would all go away. 
          
          i used to wish that i was the girl that you dreamt of.  now, the sight of you makes me wonder what on earth was wrong with me, letting you toy me around for a year and a half. 
          
          don’t forget that i was there when everyone started leaving you. it was ME who sat up late on the phone to you, messing up my sleep schedule so you could tell me about all your problems. you never even cared to ask me if i was okay. 
          
          you piled all your shit on top of mine. you never cared about me. it’s crazy what i would’ve done for you. 
          
          you broke me. you truly do have, an ugly heart.

ilyvhackerr

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          when i’m awayyy. from you, i’m happier than everrr. 
          wish i could explain it bettter. 
          i wish it wasn’t trueee ooh. 
          give me a dayyyy or two. 
          to think of something cleverrrr. 
          to write myself a letterrr. 
          to tell me what to doooo ooh mmmm. 
          do you read my interviews?
          or do, you skip my avenue?
          when you said you were passing through, was i even on your wayyyy?
          i knew. 
          when i asked you tooooo be cool about what i was telling you. 
          you’d do the opposite of what you said you’d do. 
          and i’d end up more afraid…. 
          don’t say it isn’t fair, you clearly weren’t aware that
          you made me miserableeee ooooh. 
          so if you really wanna know. 
          when i’m awayyyy for youu, i’m happier than ever. 
          wish i could explain it betterrrr. 
          i wish it wasn’t trueeee oooh mmmm. 
          
          
          
          you called me again… 
          drunk in your benz.
          driving home under the influence….
          you scared me to death but i’m wasting my breath, because you only listen to your fucking friends. 
          i don’t relate to you. 
          i don’t relate to you no. 
          cause i’d never treat me this shitty. 
          you made me hate this city..
          
          and i don’t talk shit about you on the internet, never told anyone anything bad. 
          cause that shit’s embarrassing. 
          you were my everything. 
          all that you did was make me fucking sad. 
          so don’t waste the time i don’t have. 
          don’t try to make me feel bad. 
          i could talk about every time that you showed up on time, but i’d have an empty line cause you never did. 
          never paid any mind to my mother or friends, so i shut them all out for you cause i was a kid. 
          
          you ruined everything good. 
          always said you were misunderstood. 
          made all my moments your own. 
          just fucking leave me aloneeeeee.