im-sorry

ok i think i have a phobia of bugs or some shit. it took me an hour and a half to fall asleep last night because of the thought a spider might be in my bed. like i seriously had a panic attack just laying down doing nothing. i have a slight fear of going to the bathroom because of the though there might be a bug in there. i dont know what to do i feel miserable.

Alright starting tomorrow, going keto for a week. Not letting my family stop me. Not eating anything after 6:00 pm. No breakfast. No sugar. One meal a day, carb free. Lets do this. Work out when I’m not in pain from working out. Will it make me lose weight? I fuckin hope so. 

Alright I’m trying to lose weight. Do I need to lose weight? Probably not but I can’t stand the sight of myself so let’s do it. Don’t eat anything unless my parents make me. Take a walk everyday and if I have the energy do stair runs. As a family we aren’t eating anything after six so whoop. If I have to eat, not sugar or carbs. Hunger pains is the only thing that makes me happy these days. I gotta get high on it.

My school just announced it will be shutting down for the rest of the year due to the coronavirus. I get to avoid a lot of anxiety and spend more time with my family but I wish I could have said bye to some of my teachers.

Just adopted a bunny! She’s adorable <3

The kids asked what was for dinner and I told them “Scraps.” They started crying. Spoiled brats, it’s really hard to get food at the moment thanks to the panic buying.
          
          And it was a stupid name for a dog anyway. 

I’m watching SAO (Sword Art Online) and it’s honestly amazing. I’m not sure if it beats Deathnote though... Eh, they’re equal, I can’t decide!

best feeling is when you wake up from a dream and realize whatever you were worrying about in the dream you don’t have to worry about anymore like “Now I have to rewrite my essay, Apple doesn’t keep women hostage!” 

i’m literally sick, bet I have the coronavirus. It was nice knowing you. 

Our school is getting shut down for three weeks due to the coronavirus. Stay safe guys.