@imaddicttoyou , Papa God never listen what your wish for He rather watching you having some difficult things & hoping you will trust Him someday. I'm 5months late to reply this but I still doing it maybe today you still struggling (but I hope not) I'm still here, you still my favorite ate you know?
Psalm 84:11 "For the Lord GOD is a sun & shield: The Lord will give grace & glory: No good thing will he withhold from that walk uprighty."