Hi everyone,
Today I just wanted to be honest about something I’ve been feeling. Lately I’ve been feeling really sad, overwhelmed, and honestly… jealous. When I see other authors — their successful books, their growing platforms, their income, and the recognition they receive — it sometimes makes my heart feel heavy. I start comparing myself, questioning my own journey, and wondering if I’m doing enough or if I’ll ever reach where they are.
I know jealousy is not a beautiful emotion. In fact, it can slowly destroy a person if we keep it buried inside. That’s why I’m choosing to say it out loud instead of pretending it doesn’t exist. These feelings are real, and I think many creators silently go through them.
Right now everything feels even more intense, and I think part of it might also be because I’m about to get my period — my emotions are all over the place, and everything feels heavier than usual. My mind keeps racing with doubts, comparisons, and insecurities.
But at the same time, I’m reminding myself that every author’s journey is different. Success doesn’t arrive at the same time for everyone. Some people bloom earlier, some later — and that doesn’t make one journey more valuable than another.
So if you’re reading this and you’ve ever felt jealous, insecure, or overwhelmed seeing someone else succeed… please know you’re not alone. I’m learning to acknowledge these feelings, breathe through them, and keep writing anyway.
This is just a small moment of honesty from me.
— Ruhi
