imalovesickloser

i’m desperate need of a distraction…anyone have book recommendations?

you only have want me when you need help
          whenever you’re upset at me suddenly there’s no i in i love you it’s all gn not good night beautiful it’s morning not good morning sunshine 
          whoever your valentine is needs to gtfo
          they call you luv…
          bro wtfffff 

im in so much pain right now. an immeasurable amount of pain. time is moving so slow. it's 4:10 in the morning. I've been up since 3:30. but somehow it feels like 3 hours have passed. 

2024 officially the worst year of my life if i lose one more fucking person before the year ends dude all hell is gonna break loose 

STREAM CHROMAKOPIA GUYSSS!!! ALSO TYLER THE FUCKING CREATER IS COMING TO MY CITY NEXT YEAR!!!

oh also im wearing a costume everyday for this last week of October. I was a fairy on Saturday, yesterday I was a witch, today I'm a cowboyyyy

anyways I'm so cute so sexy so fine i should be a cowboy everyday

guysssssssss im back on wp!!!!! uhm yeah i really leave to protect my mental so i can heal. because I've made so much progress within myself and I'm so proud of myself. I've found some tools to help me when i get down mentally because it happens a lot. and fast and lasts a while. but that's not the point. oh I've also been researching different coping skills and self harm alternatives and distractions. so like when I'm alone or like have no healthy distraction i don't like go binge or punch concrete or like yeah you get the point. and I've been letting a lot of things go and for giving people. and i feel really good. im getting happy. not there yet but getting there. and I've realized i shouldn't find my happiness in one person. shouldn't rely on that person to bring me happiness because that s not fair to me or them. i have to create happiness in myself and yk. yeah that's it i think. good morning. happy Monday!

I've never cried at school before and i was dead ass bawling my eyes out at lunch. that's so embarrassing so pathetic T^T

i retwisted and detoxed my hair today. im proud of the results. brought me a little joy after the shit day i had