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Wassup

Haven't been on here in a few months so, uh, yeah, how y'all doin ?

What if

Guess who's birthday it is 
          (I would add a bunch of random emojis but they don't work) anyways 

I think I'm just going to kind of disappear for a while, won't be answering anyone (except for one specific person), I just can't keep up with anyone else right now and I've been overwhelmed by shitty feelings and impulsive thoughts, I'm doing really bad mentally.
          
          Hope y'all have a good Thanksgiving and stuff, I probably won't be back for a month or two, maybe I'll be back on my birthday just to say hi, but idk
          
          Luv you all, bye <3

Woke up feeling slightly awful, stayed in bed half the day, I'm only out of bed to get lunch with my dad and grandma. 
          
          I still didn't get much sleep, and I'm like, super bored, so uh, does anyone wanna talk? I got nothing better to do
          
          But how are y'all?

I'm bored now, so time to give myself my 19th(?) And possibly 20th piercing, maybe more, we'll see :)

Manic stuff has been causing me to get like 3-4 hours of sleep at most a night for the past week, think I may actually pass out from exhaustion this time, or maybe I'll be up until 4am again, we shall see ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

Just gonna quickly explain why I've been seemingly very unhinged so far these past few days, I deal with manic episodes that tend to last for long amounts of time, currently going through one, if I'm acting concerning it's because of that, yes, I may do stupid stuff that could possibly end very badly for me- but there's nothing I can do about it so, uh, dw about me, I just can't control impulsive decisions and ideas of mine currently, also I joke about serious stuff that happens to me, that's how I deal with bad situations, I'm all good tho, hope y'all aren't to worried, I'll just do my best to deal with it, should be over in at most a few months :)

First time I've genuinely cried in months and it's from being called fucking Bambi
          
          Literally sobbing, I hope I get called that forever