Gem

I'm sick of myself

I miss you and your brain

Here I am
          back to where I started 
          though things are different now
          it never seems to change 
          ~kda

You make smile

I'm sad right now or maybe mad
          I don't know but either way I'm crying and I can't seem to stop 

"I only feel complete with arms wrapped around me" 
          You were holding me 
          Then you stopped 
          You filled this void that was in me 
          Now your the reason why the void is bigger
          Maybe you're  the only one that can fix me 
          Others will try 
          But You made a mess and walked away 
          At least you had the guts to do so 
          I'll continue to pretend 
          
          
          ~kda

"I'm over you"
          Are the words I keep telling myself 
          Trying to convince myself 
          That I can move on 
          Leave behind all of the hurt 
          Leave behind all of the false hope
          Yet I can't bring myself to walk away
          Walk away from you
          Walk away from the "love" we shared 
          Walk away from happiness..
          Was I ever really happy ?
          Sure you were the reason why I smiled 
          Your also the reason why I cried 
          The reason why I wanted to see another day 
          The reason why I never wanted to wake up
          All of this is bullshit 
          Complete bullshit 
          All I do is wait for a 
          "Someday"
          A day that will never happen
          It was all just a lie I kept telling myself
          A lie that you continued to feed with all of your 
          hugs and hand holds filled with love 
          But that's thing this they were never 
           "Filled love" 
          You lead me to a world that didn't exist 
          I can't walk away from the lie we shared 
          
          ~kda
          
          
          
          

Tell me you won't leave 
          It doesn't have to be a Promise
          But I just need to hear those 3 words 
          You can't leave me here alone
          So please just tell me 
          That you won't leave me
          Tell me that you want to stay 
          Tell me that you'll fight 
          Just please don't leave me here alone 
          You might okay with it but 
          What will happen to me 
          So please just tell me 
          "I Won't Leave" 
          
          ~kda

You're an asshole 

I want to tell you how I feel 
          I know you'll runaway 
          It's what you do best
          At least then I can be at  peace 
          No more wondering about
          What could have been
          Just me and a 
          Ghost of you
          ~kda