imnotneaa
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Happy birthday to our markeuuu!!! I know it's a late greet (I greeted him already on every social media platform except on wattpad and it's still not enough) I felt like you guys, the Dreamies, ilichil, wayv, just.. every member of NCT have helped me through so much. I'm still at a young age, but I could already say for a fact that you helped me grow in many ways. When I have a bad day, I would usually cry myself to sleep or just.. don't sleep. There was this time when I just had one of the worst days of my life, and then when I got home from school I just flopped on my bed and started crying, and crying. I didn't even bother to go downstairs for dinner when mom called me and I just said I was doing my homework and just wasn't hungry at all. And then I don't know, something just hit me and I thought "shit I shouldn't be acting like this, other people have had worse than mine so how could I dare cry over a shitty day?? ", I kept getting angry at myself. I started scrolling on my phone just to keep me distracted from having bad thoughts again, then that notification popped up on my screen. Do you know what it was? It was the 1st published episode of "Let's Fill Up Our Memories" lmao, I was actually quite surprised since I wasn't even active much as an nctzen that time. I thought it'd be good to keep me distracted from all those thoughts so there I was. I finished ep 1 excited and so smiley wondering when the next episode will be released, cause I for sure couldn't wait. At the same time, I also realized, I'm smiling because of 9 men who doesn't even know I exist?, I thought I was going insane. Especially when the time Mark lost to Taeyong after playing the game, I was DYING. NCT is my home, my everything, my comfort. Mark Lee, especially. Thank you, Our Lion! And again, Happy Birthday!!:))