Nevaeh

Thanks for voting on my books! :)

@TheGothEmo 
          I swear to you, I WILL get that chapter posted by 3 am tonight, I just need to kick off this cough I have at the moment. Merry Christmas, and have a swell night!!!

Hi lovelies! 
          Sorry I took an unannounced hiatus, but I'm back now. I wanted to let you all know I'm trying to get a schedule set up for posting and something to generally get my shit together. I can't wait for school to start up so I can have assistance with said schedule. 
          

Hi fellow Watties!
          PLEASE READ MY BOOK: Cártel Girl!!!!!
          What do you want to happen in Chapter 4????? PLEASE GIVE ME IDEAS BEFORE I DELETE IT D': 
          
          I have a horrible habit of deleting them when people loose interest *nervous laughter and awkwardly rubs back of neck*

Annnnnnd
          I kinda want to die.
          • I had 3 crippling anxiety attacks today
          • I got dumped
          • I'm thinking about cutting again
          • I'm in love with a guy who could kill me and I'd still be here for him

My nightmares have been getting worse. I woke myself up at 3 am screaming. No one cared. It was terrifying. The dreams haunt me throughout the day. I can't deal with this much longer.
          
          "The sky is falling." That's a quote from Chicken Little. And he was right. HIS sky was falling . No one believed him because it wasn't their sky. It was his and no one had the mind to step into his shoes. The boy who was picked on because he was smaller than everyone else. Who couldn't do the same things. Who had big dreams. The boy who lost his mother. 
          
          I'M the girl whose sky is falling. I'M the girl who is smaller than everyone else, emotionally. I'M the girl with seemingly in-obtainable dreams. I'M the girl who lost both of her fathers.
          
          But I'm also the girl who is opening up to everyone. I'm the girl whose heart is  listening to her mind. The sane part, finally.
          
          I'm the girl who can stand up and say, " I may be crippled in ways you can and can't see, but that is who I AM. And I'm strong enough to know that I'm better than I was yesterday, last week, last month, and last year."
          
          So I ask all of you who bring me down and try to hurt me all the time; "What can you say that makes you AND others feel good about who you are, not materially, not the kids you were yesterday, but who you are today and what you hold in your heart?"
          
          Mic drop. Bitch.

Okay guys, serious moment here. Please read this. Please please please please.
          
          My immune system has been slowly declining and I've been sick for two or three weeks now. I don't feel good at all. Physically or mentally. 
          
          I've been getting nightmares, night terrors, and I've become really paranoid and jumpy. I get so sad being by myself that I don't know what to do, nor do I want to do anything. 
          
          I just sleep. I don't really eat much at all. This past week I've had two slices of pizza, an ICE drink, and a glass of milk. I'm in pain.
          
          I wake up in a cold sweat and I'm in pain. In my most recent night terror, I was beaten horribly like I was when I was younger and an area of main affliction was my knees. My sister woke me up and my knees were in so much pain, all I could do was cry and text my boyfriend. And he wasn't awake or able to help me.
          
          I've been so tired of it. The pain, the lack of sleep, the lack of energy, I don't have any passion for anything othet than him. Even at that, I just want to lay down all day with him and let him read to me or me read to him. 
          
          I just CAN'T function normally anymore and no one is seeing the pain in me. I've been trying my hardest to help him but nobody is noticing that I'm hurting or being hurt. 
          
          And it scares me.

I WILL NOT BE WORKING ON 'Cartel Girl' UNTIL I FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO WITHT THE NEXT CHAPTER. 

My next chapter on Cártel Girl will be posted before 12 pm on Saturday the 14th. I am giving y'all one hint. Guess as many times as you want, but if you guess the chapter name, I'll write a third surprising update for this story. The hint; 
          MCR song lyrics.

TO ALL THAT HAVE READ 'CARTEL GIRL' THE UPDATE IS COMING ALONG SLOWLY. I AM ABOUT TO HAVE AN EXCITING - to say the least - CHAPTER. IT SHOULD BE UP BY THE WEEKEND. IF I COULD GET 3 MORE VOTES ON THE FIRST OR SECOND CHAPTER, I WILL DO AN ADDITIONAL UPDATE THIS WEEKEND, IT WILL BE POSTED ON MONDAY, JANUARY 16TH.