Beronica is my OTP

Hi bestay how are uu<3

If you don't kind, kindly read my poetry collection. God bless!♡
          
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My 'friend' called me a whore and was talking shit about me, to my brother while I sitting nearby. This was two days ago. I was wearing a reindeer onesie and he was saying that if I was straight, I would go around asking every guy if I could suck their... well you know what.
          My other 'friend' used me from day one, took advantage of my emotions and then did something she knew would upset me, in front of me, with someone I had been angry at for 2 weeks straight(which she knew). I only realized she had been using me, a couple weeks ago. But, I was being taken advantage of for two whole years.
          Back in elementary school, I had a 'friend' who physically abused me. She would hit me and drag me places by the ear(which hurts like hell by the way). I was in 3rd(&4th) grade and had no idea that being beaten by your friends wasn't normal, much less that it wasn't okay. 
          I had a 'friend' who bullied me throughout our friendship. Then one day, told everyone that I was suicidal. In fifth grade. I barely knew what suicide was, much less thought about commiting it.
          I had a 'friend' who threatened to hurt me, at least twice a day. A friend who put me down about everything. She is one of the reasons I am so insecure now. Before her, I didn't care what anyone thought about me.
          
          I could go on, but the point is, be careful who you are friends with. Be careful who you give power to in your life. These people ruined me and I put up with it for way too long. Please, if you are in a toxic relationship, get out as quick as you can. I know it's hard and I know(depending on the circumstances) it can be scary, but if you can safely get out, do it. If you are scared for your physical safety, please get help.  
          
          DATING ABUSE HOTLINE:
          Hotline: 1 (866) 331 – 9474
          Text: 22522
          
          CHILD ABUSE HOTLINE:
          Hotline: 1 (800) 422 – 4453
          
          SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE:
          Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
          
          SEXUAL ASSAULT HOTLINE:
          Hotline: 1 (800) 656-4673
          
          Please take care of yourselves, loves. YOU SHOULD BE YOUR FIRST PRIORITY!

taking a step back and looking out, i see the remains of what i once was and the hopes of what i could become 
          i've paused the moment, i'm looking over myself and my health
          say goodbye to the days of dark 
          say hello to my mending heart 
          i'm done aching when you don't care 
          even though, for you, i will always be there 
          but now, it is my time to be there for myself
          now, it is time to care about my health

Take a picture, 
          it will last longer
          
          But I'm fairly sure pictures don't show the thoughts and feelings inside 
          They don't show these things because they are easy to hide

I GIVE YOU THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD!
          
          once you get this, you must paste this on 8 people's message boards. It doesn't matter if you break the chain but it's good to let people know they are beautiful in and out.
          
          I'm serious about this. You are beautiful, no matter what anyone else says. Luv ya! ♥♥♥

Hey people! I'm so sorry I haven't posted in forever. My mental health was really bad there for a while, so I had to take a second. I am back now though and I'm hoping to update some stories as soon as I find the inspiration. Thank you all for the support on my books! Love you guys <3

hey. hope your okay!! i haven’t been that active but i wanted to check on u 

My brother calling someone, and I quote, "A depressed weirdo", sucks. Like really? He's said things like this before and it is just because he doesn't fucking get it. The dumb ass can't get it through his thick skull that someone could feel this way because he has had everything handed to him. He's the popular kid, who can get away with everything, that all the girls adore. He doesn't even have to try. Then, I'm over here crying everyday because boys treat me like they are better than me and I'm some submissive being that is supposed to keep my mouth shut and do what they say. Crying because people make fun of my sexuality. Crying because I'm stuck in this stupid ass rut, where I'm hurting constantly or feeling numb constantly. Where I cut myself and want to die, or dig my nails into the palms of my hand to relieve my anger. I'm so over my whole family right now because my parents have been saying some things and doing some things that kill me inside. I want to run away, I want to scream at my brother and make him understand. But, I can't. Okay sorry, just needed to rant.

ATTENTION ALL We All Need Someone to Save Us- Beronica FANS: 
          The final chapter of this book is coming up and I want to work extra hard on it and make it an extra long chapter, so my weekly updating thing is being called off. This story will be updated as soon as I am satisfied with the last chapter. Thank you all for sticking with me and supporting this book! Love you all and have a gay day!