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i started reading the hockey books. chat this is published sticky fanfic. i love women

also i'm coming on here to tell you that my new vocal stim is ilya rozanov going "is lie. liar told you that."

new spider-man movie soonish???? with sadie sink????? oh baby i've been waiting for days like these

i feel so discouraged and saddened as of late and i know this winter is going to hit hard and be so awful. 
          
          i can't stop watching videos from neos. and tik tok is only "taking action" against half of the accounts/comments i'm reporting. is it even worth it to keep doing that??
          
          idk tik tok i think a video of a guy wearing a y shirt with the HH salute and a caption saying "have a great White day" is PRETTY AGAINST YOUR COMMUNITY GUIDELINES AHHHHH.
          
          oh well. i have my cat on my lap, and and trying to write a little more to bulk up chapter one of TV to have it out soon. at least i can do that all myself

just saw someone on tik tok make a christmas tree PUT OF CHEESE. and dill. guys i believe in love again

rant talking about politics incoming: 
          
          hey. when did it become okay to be a literal neo nazi sending dog whistles on the internet?? 
          
          never in my LIFEEEE before hopping on facebook have i seen this level of hatred and bigotry before oh my GODDDDD. 
          
          for context: last night as i was doing my little facebook scroll to try and catch up on people, i saw a video on reels. it was captioned "when someone asks what my political beliefs are" and then cut to him wearing a GERMAN OFFICER uniform. people sending the double lightning emoji in the comments section, a common neo-nazi dog whistle. i saw 1488, another common dog whistle. wtf. i understand free speech, but COME ON. that's not free speech, that's HATE speech from a group of people who want to see an entire religion and group of people wiped away. 
          
          how incredible shameful. i fucking hate it

just finished episode 1 of heated rivalry...... this is such a masterfully done piece of desire in film. the actors work so well together. the intimacy coordinator does such a good job ?? on very scene??? and all of the dialogue is written so grounded in reality. the small talks of asking for consent like "is this okay?" "do you like this?" "are /you/ okay?". STUNNING. stunning...... that scene when they just finished a workout and the audio is just their heavily breathing as they look longingly at each other, hands touching slightly as they share a water bottle together- it's so good 

i truly haven't written in do long my writing stamina is DOGSHIT. it's so badddddd
          
          i was able to write one (1) singular blurb for my fanfic but idk how i'm gonna tie it in with my story ahhhhhh
          
          i know i complain a lot on this app. but i also have to do laundry right after. so the joke is on me. I HATE LAUDRY ABBHHHHHH CRASH OUT POST OVER THANK YOU I LOVE YOU <3

Hey, girl! If you ever wanna RP or chat, lmk! Or drop a starter! It feels like we don't talk as much anymore. :)

edit i made in a few hours, didn't do any filters on, posted at 6am before i passed out: 1.1k views, 100 likes
          
          edit i made working on in little bits over a few days, made look nice, posted late at night: 325 views... 25 likes  
          
          i'm crine