imtheyoungestvolcano

ah oh my god. 
          
          I haven't been online in like...forever. and I haven't updated in way longer than that. 
          
          truth is, I just haven't found the time to update. I have school, I have (awful) parents to not annoy, and I have (no) friends to spend time with. 
          
          whatever.
          
          I apologise for my absence, and honestly, I would like to be updating you with "I GOT TICKETS TO SEE GERARD WAY, MY HERO AND MY IDOL, IN A WEEK" but unfortunately my parents are awful, and though they got me tickets, got me excited about seeing him, made me imagine all of these (unlikely) scenarios where we meet and become friends, or even just meet and I thank him for EVERYTHING- they decided to take them away from me, forcing me to curl up in a ball and sob for about 23.9 hours a day, and then get angry and call me selfish for being so sad all of the time. perhaps they dont understand that he's my hero and that he has saved my life, or they're just assholes. I'm guessing the latter. 
          
          either way, whether I had tickets to see G or not, I haven't even written anything for Sleep. nor do I have the brain power to do so right now. I will NOT be deleting it, but for now...I'm just putting it to sleep (wow would you look at that pun)
          
          this update was probably a waste of time, and none of you probably cared. if you read it, you probably thought I was whining. maybe you are deeply enthralled by what I had to say. maybe you didn't even read it. 
          
          anywho, I will leave you with a beautiful and inspiring quote from the King himself- 
          
          "fuck off, it's meese"
          
          stay beautiful, keep it ugly,
          
          - xoB

hey! I decided to delete dance, dance. I wasn't happy with it and wasn't going to complete it anyway. Thank you to the people that liked it though! xoB

i got my macbook yesterday and its so pretty ^.^ id been saving up for it for like...forever so yeah its amazing that i finally have it. I've been trying to make gifs on photoshop and i did one but then i sort of gave up because they're really annoying to make and i don't have much patience. but nw i am going to write more of sleep!!! <3

i am about to write sleep chapter 8!!! this chapter gets a little more interesting, so yay haha

update of the apmas:
          
          •atl won 2 things hell yes
          •21p smashed it!!!!
          •fob won best artist of the year
          •mark hoppus is pete's dad
          •'thanks pete' 2k14
          •mcr didn't win most dedicated fans??? excuse u
          •pete wentz won best baesist

gerards new hair colour??? its orange??? i was not consulted about this??? he looks amazing??? as usual ofc lmao but still??? if gerard cannot be a fruit he will dye his hair as close as he can to match it

I have been super busy and so I haven't been able to update Sleep. Hopefully the next part will be up on Friday! 

im going to write more of sleep rn, but idk if it will be up before the end of today...but hopefully it will! <33

I'm very upset to hear that Dan isn't going to do a meet up at Summer In The City, which probably means Phil won't either. Dan and Phil are both extremely important to me and I love them both more than most people could imagine, and sometimes a lot more than I let on. Finding this out has made my day a hell of a lot worse- because I still had the hope of meeting my idols in August and that was something I had to look forward to but now I don't and I feel like something has been completely ripped out of me and it's really not a nice feeling. I really hope I do get to meet them, but it looks like I won't. I know I must sound very ungrateful for the other youtubers I might meet, like Caspar, Troye, Joe, Zoe, Louise, etc, but Dan and Phil (alongside PewDiePie and Marzia) are my heroes and they have helped me get through a lot of things and I love them so so so so much and meeting them would have let me thank them for everything, and now I can't. I'm sorry if this was annoying but I felt like I had to share it as it upset me and I didn't know where else to rant about it. 

i got the 5sos album today! im really liking it so far :)