imyourmuffin

SOOOOOOOOOOOOo.......I may have gotten a different phone and ummmm well I forgot my pw for this account so now I have two accounts

imyourmuffin

Hey guys. I'm not doing well so I thought that I would rant here. sorry about this. So since I was 7yo I was in foster care and about three years ago I found a family that I enjoyed being with. during those three years I was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) I've been in therapy for a while and I was just starting to trust people so I opened myself up to adoption. The adoption is not final but today my adoptive mom said some things that triggered me The PTSD along with the trust issues which yes I do have. We were at dinner and she said 'you know I could take you back to orangewood (kinda like an orphanage) I would and could have so much without you' this isn't the first time shes said it but I'm still healing and she knows that and now I can't find myself to feel any love sympathy or trust in her. I feel so alone I don't know what to do. Yes before I have suffered negative thoughts of opting myself and what life would be like without me I stopped that awhile ago though.  I feel alone, so very alone 
          
          that's my ted talk have a good night folks

imyourmuffin

thank you so much and yes whenever I'm having a hard time I will try and reach out to you. You just made me smile so thank you for that.
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BrightEyes303

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@imyourmuffin Your not alone sweetheart if that woman can't see how amazing you are then fuck her. Don't let her make you feel useless cause you're not. Your the only you and you are an amazing person I'm sure. And as for being alone yeah I know how you feel, but I found the best way to get over that is talking. There is always someone to talk too. If you ever want to talk dm me and you can talk you want I'll listen because I know what it's like to feel alone. It hurts so don't be alone okay. I know you have trust issues and we just met, but just don't forget you can talk with anytime. Have a good day sweetheart. Keep a smile on okay things get better
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